New Date

Well obviously if the subject keeps coming up, then the topic is unsettled. I have no peace of mind until I get it over with. I really think I need to get my butt back to Manila. This is how I see things will play out: 1) I go over there and have the time of my life. 2) I will then eventually get frustrated about everything like corruption, pollution, traffic, etc. 3) I will go back to Seattle and will finally be content about living here. Sounds reasonable, yes?

You risk big, you gain big. I need to do this. I think I'll forever "feel" miserable for missing out on things and I'll forever wonder what could've been if I don't go back while I'm young. I don't want to be a gurang by the time I set foot in the country again and by the look of things, it will be like that if I keep thinking "Sayang naman." Every event is a learning opportunity afterall.

My one-year commitment at Job #2 will be over next month so I won't have to worry about breaking any promises regarding that one. After talking to my Job #2 boss, Yash, and Pen, I have decided that it's best if I finish one year at Job #1. I need to secure that resume entry before I do anything "stupid" and "selfish." So, we're looking at March 2005. As Yash pointed out, I can't take on new commitments between now and March 2005, or else I'll keep pushing back the date. Fine, no more guy stalking. Fine, no more new jobs. Fine with me.

What Can Brown Do For You

My only goal this summer is to be a brown pinay. Yes, what a hefty goal. When I saw a tanned Kris Aquino on The Buzz a month ago or so, I realized just how healthy one looks when he/she is tanned versus when he/she is white as snow. With my twice-a-week tennis lessons that will start at the end of this month, I hope I will achieve my goal. I'm going to put an end to my babaeng Vanness Wu facade and shall aim to be a babaeng Jerry Yan instead.

Career Woes

Yesterday was the 1st anniversary of my college graduation. Am I any better off than I was a year ago? Absolutely not. LoL. I'm still confused about the same things...and still single, thank you very much. HaHa!

Then, tomorrow will be my 3 monthsary at Job #1. Did it fly by? Umm, no. Have I learned anything new? Umm, I've learned that I'm a master vacation planner stuffer. Yay for me? I am grateful for being employed, because if I had still been unemployed after a year of graduating college, I would've probably jumped off a cliff by now. I kid you not. However, I can't help, but think that somewhere, there is a place for me in the real world that will make me feel content. For someone who never settled for anything less, this is understandable, right? So, I guess we're back to Real World Lesson #1: Patience.

My boss at Job #2 and I had a talk over the phone on Sunday. I told her about my career woes at Job #1 and she told me to stick with Job #1 for a year (Yash: Apparently, I don't take my own advice. HaHa!). According to her, I need it for my resume especially since it *is* a job in my field. True. Ugh! Why didn't I just become a doctor? =P

Goody Two Shoes

I watched Good Morning, Kris last week where Her0 Angeles guested. His mom praised him for being a non-gimikero and I got a little (just a little!) affected because that was the first time I have ever heard a parent appreciate such a quality about his/her child. So it gave me hope: I'm sure there are non-gimikero guys out there...somewhere out there...where dreams come true. LoL. Hence, the problem is still unsolved: where do you find such people? You find the gimikeros and gimikeras in the clubs and bars, but where the heck do you find the goody-two-shoes (the cute, tall, non-nerdy ones ha! LoL)? I need to know! HeHe.

On a different note, can someone define "poor" (in the Philippines) for me? Poor, like in socio-economic terms. Poor to me is living in a shack/cardboard box, kids not going to school, family eating one meal a day, etc. Am I stereotyping, or have the poor people of the Philippines become more sosyal and are now eating champorados for noche buena? Wala lang...I'm just amazed at how great ABS-CBN is at creating drama behind its stars to propel them to stardom. If there's an opening in that department, can I apply? ;P (I'm not downplaying whatever hardships someone may have gone through-because I'll never be able to walk in his/her shoes to find out-but I'm just curious to find out if the Philippine society has truly taken the term "middle class" out...or if it only happens when you've become an artista. ;P

Let The Secret Be Told

This is why I'm single:



I mean, gawd, who would want to get into a relationship with this many kids?! HeHe. And trust me, there's more where those came from.

I opened the boxes in the guest bedroom last night and I couldn't believe that I've accumulated this much Sanrio stuff. Yes, I still get wowed whenever I see them all together. Anyone care to buy them off me? You gotta buy each "set" though...not just individual stuff (The picture above is the Sanrio Family series...100 plushes in all...took me 2 continents to complete them); I'd hate to part my kids from their little brothers and sisters. HaHa!