Ode to 2005

What did you do in 2005 that you'd never done before?
Put life before money; put others before me during Christmas; traveled to Belgium, China, Tacloban, Cebu, Bohol; tried to find a job in Manila; trusted way too many strangers with my life this year (HeHe!); discovered wi-fi; waited for someone at NAIA; watched UAAP games...hmm, basta a lot of firsts this year. =)

Did you keep your new years' resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
I never make new years' resolutions.

Did anyone close to you give birth?
No.

Did anyone close to you die?
No.

What countries did you visit?
Belgium, China, Philippines

What would you like to have in 2006 that you lacked in 2005?
A fulfilling job. Sige na nga, lovelife na rin. HaHa!

What date from 2005 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?
July 27 was when I arrived in Manila.

What was your biggest achievement of the year?
Pursuing what I've always wanted to do.

What was your biggest failure?
If I answer lovelife, it will be like what I said last year. Sawing-sawi na masyado! LoL. I guess my biggest failure would be not being a better daughter to my parents.

Did you suffer illness or injury?
No.

What was the best thing you bought?
Papa the Powerbook, my digital camera, my plane ticket to Manila.

Whose behavior merited celebration?
Ninang for not kicking me out of the house in San Mateo. LoL.

Whose behavior made you appalled and depressed?
That evil landlady and those in Manila who told me "Please expect the job offer by next week."

Where did most of your money go?
Plane tickets, Starbucks, and Smart prepaid cards.

What did you get really, really, really excited about?
Time with friends and cousins.

What song(s) will always remind you of 2005?
"I Believe" ni Jimmy Bondoc? HaHa! Thank Tet for sending me the MP3. LoL.

Compared to this time last year, are you:
i. happier or sadder? -- Absolutely happier.
ii. thinner or fatter? -- Thinner sabi nila.
iii. richer or poorer? -- Richer. Unemployed, but richer. =)

What do you wish you'd done more?
Talked to my Seattle family more.

What do you wish you'd done less of?
Harbor bitterness.

How many one-night stands?
Two...ang night stands sa room dito. ;P Corny ba? LoL.

What was your favorite TV program?
VH1 shows and Eat Bulaga (when I still had a TV in the bedroom)

Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year?
Nope.

What was the best book you read?
By the River Piedra, I Sat Down and Wept by Paolo Coelho

What was your greatest musical discovery?
Nina Live! CD

What did you want and get?
Happiness. =D

What was your favorite film of this year?
"...ing"

What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?
I spent lunchtime with Twin Mayie and dinner with the titos and titas. Mid-twenties.

What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
A job would've been nice.

How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2005?
Flipflops! I wish I could wear them all year-round in Seattle!

What kept you sane?
Tambayan sessions and text messages!

Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?
Kim Rae Won (swooooooon!)

What political issue stirred you the most?
George W. Bush's existence

Who did you miss?
My Seattle family especially Ganda Girl (I do wonder if she still remembers her magandang ninang!)

Who was the best new person you met?
Naks! I love you all! Yihee! HaHa!

Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2005
Live life.

What was the nicest thing someone told you about yourself
"You're a gem waiting to be found." Huwag kayong makilig; bading ang nagsabi niyan sa akin. LoL.

The most touching experience you've had this year?
Tess thanking me for her Christmas gift; people telling me that they value my friendship; getting a surprise birthday cake on my birthday.

What did you like most about yourself this year?
Numero unong kaladkarin ng bayan this year. HeHe.

What did you hate most about yourself this year?
Hmm...my feeling helpless when frustration sets in.

Quote a song lyric that sums up your year
What a journey it has been
And the end is not in sight
But the stars are out tonight
And they’re bound to guide my way
When they’re shining on my life
I can see a better day
I won’t let the darkness in
What a journey it has been

-- Lea Salonga's "The Journey"

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This past year was a good one. I didn't think it would be judging from the start of this year, but it turned out to be a good one afterall.

At the start of the year, I woke up every morning dreading to go to work. Lifeless would be the most accurate term to use to describe me at that time. Yikes.

When I finally got out and found a job that I thought would give me the world (literally), I lost it in a blink of an eye. I would've accepted the defeat if they had given me a solid reason, but they didn't. It was a humbling experience to say the least.

On top of that, I lost $500 trying to prove how grown up I was. In the process, I realized how sheltered I was, how I haven't met enough horrible people in this world to realize that there are many lurking around. I took it hard. Really hard.

By June, I was sure that 2005 was the worst year ever of my life. Up to now, I can't even look at my archives from January to June because I know those ill feelings will come rushing back again.

But everything truly happens for a reason. God ALWAYS gives me what I want and by July, He did. I found myself doing what I have always wanted to do: go back to the Philippines.

I found reasons to smile again. I found happiness. I found a goal worth pursuing (that would be a job and not a lovelife, people! HaHa!). I found my self-esteem back to near normal levels. I found newfound friends worth keeping. I found life. Naks!

Thank you to my website visitors who "kept me company" throughout this past year, Raissa (and family for treating me well in Tacloban), Tita Rosalyn, Zara (and family), Tet, Lisa, Supervisors Pinky-Sherry-Kathleen, Kuya Heinz (and brother, este, Ate Ambie, HaHa!), Belle, Alessa, Homer, Pen, and my cousins. My 2005 wouldn't have been the same without all of you.

The new year will start with a huge question for me and I don't know how to answer it. But whatever happens, I know that there is a reason for it. I just need to keep remembering that.

I wish you all the best that life has to offer and a chance to enjoy them all! Belle probably said it best when she texted me, "Wish you all the best and the boys in 2006." Amen. ;P

Jologs

At the ungodly hour of 7:30 a.m. today via text:
"Min, punta ka ba ng Galle today? Nuod tayo ng Enteng Kabisote ng 12:30!"

My semi-coherent thought: Oh my God, my cousin is so jologs!

My reply:
"I can't go. Hindi aalis si Ninang. Nuod na lang tayo ng movie nila Piolo and Judy Ann on January 8!"

My coherent thought: Oh...my...God, I'm more jologs than my cousin!

In 2002, for one of our "dates", he and I watched Jologs (the movie) at Robinson's Ermita (for the record, it was his idea to watch the movie). I ended up sitting next to a girl who was eating a hamburger with banana ketchup that I could vividly smell. That experience will forever be ingrained in the deep trenches of my memory for the simple reason that the jologs level was too high to forget. On Monday, I thought a trip to Enchanted Kingdom would topple the jologs record, but it still stands since EK didn't push through. We will just have to wait what happens on January 8th. HeHe!

Friendliest Ship

Note to self: Let's try to be girly in another way. When someone asked you to pick a Christmas gift and you picked that bling-bling Bayo top, you should've gone the casual route instead...or at least, something that was less high-maintenance. It only lasted one wear on you! Grr!

I've always told Tet that she could teach boys a thing or two about being a good boyfriend eventhough she's a girl woman. Need evidence?

• She knows how to make "paalam" to my relatives (She's the first person ever to talk to Ninang about spending time with me)


• She's never afraid to say "I miss you" and "I'm excited to see you" via text


• She uses her Free Time on me


• She calls randomly (That's why I always answer the phone with "Bakit ka tumawag?!" HaHa!)


• She knows how to buy gifts [For Christmas, she gave me (and Kulay) a Christian boylet! Just what I wanted! HaHa!]


• She can make me tear up (in a good way!): "You have no idea how blessed I am to have you as a friend. Thank you for your friendship."

Sis, I always compliment Jason for being a good boyfriend to you, but I hope you know that whenever I say that, I'm complimenting you as well. You always tell me that women should never settle for anyone less than they deserve. You deserve Jason because you're both equally good people. Naks! If U.S. is an option in a few years, think about Seattle, please. =)

Joy To The World

Yesterday morning...
Me: Tess, nalabahan na ba yung puting kamiseta ko?
Tess: Oo. Hindi ko lang alam kung nasaan.
Me: Nung Monday ko sinuot yun.
Tess: Tingin ka lang dito. Um, Ate, pamasko ko?
Me: Meron, meron. Bibigay ko sa iyo mamaya. Hanapin mo muna kamiseta ko.
Tess: (Laughs)

Before I left the house that morning...
Me: Tess, o. Merry Christmas. (hands over an envelope)
Tess: Thank you, Ate.
Me: Ano ka ba, Globe or Smart?
Tess: Smart.
Me: O, eto pa. (hands over prepaid card)
Tess: Ate! Thank you! Ang bait mo talaga! (hugs)

Priceless, simply priceless. I've never seen that reaction from anyone after giving a gift and it truly made my holiday season.

Okay, okay, my first pair of Havaianas from Ninang made my holiday season...and the bling-bling Bayo shirt...and the "R" pin Ate Ricci gave me...and the P50 I got for scoring 90 on my first videoke performance (singing "Before I Let You Go" by Freestyle no less!)...but non-materialistically-speaking, Tess' reaction was the best "gift" I received this year. =)

Christmas 2005

I'm taking a short break from my whirlwind holiday season to wish you all a very Merry Christmas! May your day be filled with blessings, laughter, happiness, and love.

A quick rundown of the last few days:

Dec. 21 - Ayala Museum, Greenbelt, and Glorietta
(I saw Norman Black...and got my pic taken with him!)

Dec. 22/23 - Tagaytay
(I saw Erwin Tulfo!)

Dec. 24 - Lunch in Eastwood, midnight mass, Noche Buena in Antipolo
(I saw Agot Isidro and husband!)

Dec. 25 - Lunch in Antipolo, Dinner in San Mateo
(My cousins are all stars in their own right. HeHe!)

Thank you to the Manahans, Garcias, Buloses, Riveras, and Ramoses who invited me to spend Christmas with them. I'm sorry, but there's only one me to spread around. HeHe!

Shabu Times Two

Ate Ricci and Tom (cousin and cousin-in-law, respectively) arrived from Colorado earlier today. For the first time in my whole entire life, I was the one behind those railings in NAIA, waiting on someone to arrive from the States. Man, I've never felt like such a local until today. HeHe. And to make sure that my cousin was safe, I arrived at the airport one whole hour before her expected arrival. *Ahem.

For lunch, we decided to have shabu-shabu. I've always wondered what the heck it is since I've seen the shabu-shabu restaurant at The Podium every time I go there. Well, since you learn something new everyday, I guess shabu-shabu was my lesson for the day. Although, I still don't know why they call it as such.

Money Talks

For the first time in my website history, I am going to say this:

This Christmas, I want a boyfriend. A rich boyfriend.

Yes, that one little adjective has been left out in all of my past angst-filled posts (because supposedly, I understand what true love is. *Ahem). But this Christmas, I have nothing so let me be greedy in wishful thoughts. LoL.

While finishing my Christmas shopping today, I thought of at least one hundred things that I would like to buy had I been employed. How easy it would've been to just splurge on me, me, me. However, this Christmas, I have no buying power. None. Zilch. No Amazon deliveries. No electronics. No siblings or children for Kulay or Papa. Absolutely nothing to make me feel a little warm despite being single.

Hence, a rich boyfriend would be good. A "sugar daddy" as Homer puts it (hopefully, just as sweet as sugar. Yihee! LoL).

Yes, I can see God in heaven right now, staring down at me with His hands on His hips, saying, "What do you really want?! You're confusing me!"

*Sniff. *Sniff. A career (ay, ang gulo nga ng bata! HaHa!). Someone please bring out the blankets for the nth time in history. ;P

Fantasy Forever

Sometimes, when we lose something, it only means that we didn't take enough care of it to be able to have it forever.

My question is: if it's not mine, whose is it?

Interview #11 (I Think)

It's been awhile. It's been awhile since I wore one of my "professional" outfits and went to an interview. The last one was back in October. Today was my first interview in over two months! Yikes! And it's not your typical interview since I had to do a 15-minute PowerPoint presentation before anything else.

How did it go? Like all of my past interviews here in Manila: it went well.

Confidence. Check. Communication skills. Check. Smile. Check. Knowing my material. Check.

Weakness? Posture! I've been meaning to fix that since college ended, but obviously, I haven't been doing a good job about it. So please, the next time you see me, if you see me slouching, be sure to point it out to me. Must continue to increase those ganda points! HaHa!

Displaced Disposition

Crap. I can't believe this is happening again.

1. Glasses
During my first week here in Manila, one of the screws got umm, unsecrewed and I thought I had to buy a new pair of glasses. Thankfully, Tet and I were able to get my glasses fixed at The Podium for free.

2. Cellphone
Over the last (almost) five months, I've begun to cherish the darn thing. It may not look as cute as Kulay or Papa, but it works and that's all I need it to do. But on one fateful morning at Pancake House, I spilled some water on it and it started going crazy. I thought I had to buy a new cellphone. Thankfully, it fixed itself. It still goes on a fritz once in awhile (like mixing two messages in my inbox together), but I don't have to buy a cellphone and that's all I care about.

3. Watch
Guy sa MRT: "Miss, sa iyo yata yun."
Me: (looks on the floor and sees my watch) Ay, salamat po.

First of all, there are some good strangers in this country. That man could've easily picked up my watch and walked away with it, but he didn't. Anyway, the screw on the strap got umm, unscrewed and the screw went flying away somewhere. I brought the watch to one of the watch places at Shangri-La and I was told that they didn't have a screw to fix it. If I had the strap extender, they could take a screw from there and replace the one that's missing, but where's that extender? In my lovely room...in Seattle. Hence, for the past two months, I've been living my life without a watch. Not a pleasant thing for someone who always wants to be on time for everything.

4. Earrings
This is my latest misery. I didn't bring any jewelry to Manila except for my watch and earrings. The watch went bye-bye and whaddayaknow, the earrings seem to have gone with it. Monday was the last day I wore them because that was the only day this week that I ventured outside (nagtitipid kasi). I took them off when I got home and I put them somewhere. Where that somewhere is, I don't know. Yesterday, when I was getting ready to go out, I couldn't find my earrings. I looked everywhere, but ended up empty-handed. Before I left the house, I told Manang Luz to look for them when cleaning the room. When I got back last night, I was sad to find out that those earrings were still MIA.

You're probably saying, "Mina, there are so many earrings at tiangges!" I'm sorry, but Mina doesn't wear fake earrings. Ang taray! LoL. Seriously though, just like most things this holiday season, I can't afford to buy anything extravagant. A new pair of earrings is not an option.

So, dear earrings, please appear soon because I don't want to cry over you day in and day out. Besides, I need you to make me look like a girl day in and day out, too. HaHa!

Ideally Speaking

Two years later, I'm still trying to make peace with this idea from my guestbook:

because dating the ideal girl is a big responsiblity. there's this crazy notion that to be with the ideal girl, you have to be ideal as well. nakakaintimidate. better to date the mindless bimbo who swoon over just about everything you do. the impressionable chick who would worship you inspite of all your shortcomings.

It still doesn't make sense to me, people. Anyone care to enlighten? I promise I won't yell at you. HaHa!

Carded

Twenty days until Christmas. That's just crazy.

I spent some three hours at National Bookstore today buying Christmas cards. I'm one of those people who will take the time to look at every single card in the store just to find THE perfect card for every single person on my list. Call me thoughtful. =)

Sadly, I had to buy a lot of "Across the Miles" cards this year. I guess another goal in life could be eliminating the need to buy such cards forever. How I could make it so that I'm not torn between two places is such a big mystery!

Visayas

I'm back! I'm back in Manila and slightly brown! Yay!

I seriously have no idea how to start talking about everything that has happened. There's just too many stories to tell, too many people to talk about, and too many things to say altogether!

I had a great time and it's true that the people you're with make all the difference. Tita Rosalyn took me in and made me a part of their family (with my own bedroom and bathroom in the house!). She introduced me to the rest of the clan, lawyer friends, and law students who treated me like they've known me forever. The Fusers kept me company in Bohol. The bad thing about all of this is that I don't ever want to travel alone ever again. HaHa! Backpacking alone in Asia sounds so foreign now. ;P

Anyway, Cebu is great. I even like it better than Manila. It's like a city and a province in one with easy access to beaches. If I ever want to drive in the Philippines, I would try doing so in Cebu because the roads are less crazy. There's also traffic in Cebu, but it's not going to take you five hours to get home unlike in Manila. If you're into eating, Cebu has restaurants in every eskinita, road, and highway. HeHe. Man, I think I'm having withdrawals. LoL.

When I got to Cebu, I got a fever again and my first three days were hell. Regardless, I was still doing the tourist thing and visited Mactan Shrine, Magellan's Cross, Sto. Nino Church, Taoist Temple, and Tops (mountain-top view of the whole Cebu City). Tops is probably the best thinking spot in the country and I could seriously spend ten hours there. I also spent a night at Alegre Beach Resort in Sogod, Cebu. Loved it! Okay, so I spent more time in bed than outside, but that's because they have awesome rooms in Alegre! *SIGH. I also got to watch the Dancesport competition of the SeaGames at Waterfront Lahug...with a V.I.P. ticket. I'm cool, yes I am. HeHe!

Bohol was all about the Chocolate Hills, tarsiers, Baclayon Church, Loboc River, hanging bridge, and dolphins...and urchins...and mosquitoes. Damn those last two. LoL.

This trip was just another proof that things happen for a reason. It's amazing how things fall into place. I need to keep reminding myself that things will be okay in the long run. One of Tet's first text messages to me during the trip was "You're living out the dream!" I did and I hope to continue it until the end.

Lonesome Traveler Is At It Again

Shopping sucks. Shopping for something that you actually need sucks even more. Shopping for something that you actually need and trying to find it in Manila sucks the most.

I just need a plain white shirt, the non-spandex type. If I were in Seattle, I would just hop on over to Target, go to the Hanes/Fruit of the Loom section and voila! But here in Manila? Where? Why does everyone sell shirts with brands plastered all over them? Why does everyone think that everyone wants tight-hugging shirts? I don't, especially if you're going to be sweating under the sun. *SIGH. Shopping sucks.

But traveling doesn't! I'm off to the middle part of the country tomorrow for two weeks. Hooray! The rest of my travels are as follows:

November: Cebu, Bohol, Camiguin
December: Vigan, Laoag, Pagudpud (trying to get a big group to go)
January: Seattle ;P

If I learned anything during my Tacloban trip last month, it is definitely not to be a corny traveler. Thou shall see at least one sunrise/sunset at every city (in other words, actually be out and about during those times!) and thou shall be brown (or at least a shade darker) when I get back. HeHe. Now if only I can get my voice to go back to normal...

Find The Voice Within

One or the other:

1. Career or Lovelife
2. Seattle or Manila
3. Travel buddies or ... voice?

Yeah, the last one does not make sense at all. But then again when does my life actually make sense, right? HeHe.

Almost two years later, I have lost my voice yet again for reasons unknown to me. I wouldn't be complaining if my agenda in the next two weeks was to bum around the house and wait for miracles to happen, but I'm actually going to Cebu, Bohol, and Camiguin! I know! Yay for the trip! Nay for my speechless self...literally!

Let's hope the P700 I paid for 3 tablets of antibiotics work by Thursday or someone is going to have waaaaay too much material to write about on his blog again. LoL.

Bits of Bitterness

While having dinner at The Fort last night, the titos and titas saw a man they knew cheating on his wife. That is so not what I needed to see/know right now especially since I just a had a long conversation about this subject with someone else the night before. Argh!

Regardless of how many countries you've traveled alone to; regardless of how many times you've ridden on the MRT and reached your destination; regardless of how many times you've walked along EDSA with your most prized possessions and were able to still have them afterwards, a person can still be the biggest scaredy cat in the world.

Jeff: Ganoon ka din ba? Ako din eh.
Me: Ows? Where does it come from?
Jeff: Trauma.
Me: Agree ako diyan. Eh, how do you get over the trauma?
Jeff: *shrugs*

When someone called me "selosa" last week, I did get a little offended. Just days before, I told Zara, "Sis, I really can't afford another 6-7 years of being bitter again. Ang tanda ko na n'un!" As Jeffrey pointed out on Sunday, I'm such a pessimist daw. I'd like to think I'm more of a realist so I know the possible consequences! Naks! HaHa! So it's not about being jealous, it's simply wanting (and hoping really hard) for history not to repeat itself.

And maybe it was pure coincidence that one of my cousins bought Paolo Coelho's "By The River Piedra, I Sat Down & Wept" recently and allowed me to borrow the book. Seriously, if I were to recommend a handbook about life, I would put that book and Mitch Albom's "Tuesdays with Morrie" together. Good therapeutic stuff, I tell ya!

Anyway, my point? Of course, it would be pointless to not to have a point. Umm, duh? HeHe. Words of wisdom na lang kaya:

"Now is the time to live your ideal life" - Cousineau

We Belong Together: Part IV

This past week was a true testament that God definitely gives me what I ask for in due time. I had been complaining to my cousins (and everyone else who was willing to listen!) that they have not spent any time with me since I got here in July. I shall shut up for now for I have spent the five out of the last seven days with them. This is the last installment of my four-part We Belong Together series. HeHe. I've got enough "cousins fix" to last me until Christmas!

Yesterday was super fun. The titas and my girl cousins went to Divisoria after lunch to shop 'til we drop. Though I must say that 2.5 hours didn't give us that much time to actually drop. Bitin! I usually hate shopping with other people (and shopping in general), but shopping with my cousins in Divi was just too much fun. It also goes to show that when you work hard on something, you tend to enjoy what you reap more: ang sarap makipagtalo sa mga tinderas over P20 discounts! HaHa!

Afterwards, we headed over to Makati to eat at Korean Garden. I just realized that there are a bunch of Korean restaurants over at Jupiter Street (Pen, I have found the mothership! LoL). Ryan, Jimbo (in his darn white pants again!), Jeffrey, Jenessa, and Tita G treated us to dinner. When the plates were cleared, us cousins got on one side and started doing what we have been doing this past week: talking. I have no idea how we never ever run out of things to say to eachother.

Not done with food for the day, we moved over to Cafe Breton at The Podium. Each of us cousins ordered a crepe of our own. As each one was plopped on our table (good thing they came one after the other!), we instantly grabbed our forks and dug in until each one was finished. Cousins effort talaga! As Jimbo put it, "Parang buffet ng crepes!" And yes, eating like that is so much fun! As one of Homer's friends said before, "Mas masarap kasi kapag may kasamang laway ng mga kasama mo!" HaHa! Seriously though, when I eat a crepe by myself, I don't enjoy it much. Or, is it because coughing up for the bill isn't fun when you're unemployed? HeHe! Group hug, cousins, group hug! =) (Words of the day: "parfet", "laff-toff", and "wi-pi". Ay Ryan, LaSallian ka ba talaga? HeHe!)

*SIGH. San Mateo-Manila-Makati-Ortigas all in twelve hours. Who says you can't get around this metropolis?!

We Belong Together: Part III

(We Belong Together: Part II can be found here. HaHa!)

If there's one childhood memory that us "first generation" cousins remember, it is having Sunday lunches at Lolo and Lola's house. Back then, it was the 80s and I was one of the younger cousins. We would play patintero, beg Lola for change to buy candy at the corner store, run around the whole house, and enjoy being around one another.

Today's family reunion (Lola's side) reminded me of those Sundays. But this time around, I was with the "second generation" cousins decked out in our assigned color of red and was happily doing what we've been doing all this week: playing cards, conversing, and eating.

Follow The Leader

No, they didn't follow me. It was basically a solo performance by yours truly according to everyone who watched the dance number today. What can you expect from a retired high school dance team member, right? Oh, the things I do for my cousins (and the things friends do for me)!

Chickboy

This is nothing new for Ryan: having around five girls all at the same time. HaHa!

Ampid Kids

Thing in common? We have all lived in the same house.

Bidang Bida

There goes Joaqui again. HaHa!

Despite the generation gaps that I have with some of them, I'm happy to find out that we really do understand eachother. At 2 a.m. today, Gel said, "Sorry, Ate Min" while I was walking away from the dining table after having explained my not-so-happy demeanor. Instead of going to bed, I decided to sit back down and have a mini bonding session with them. The serious conversation turned into a happy one in no time. We then had a spontaneous slumber party of our own: the five of us slept in the same room, taking up every single space. Feeling oh so young yet again! HaHa!

Luckiest Boy Alive

Okay, my life is really turning into a comedy now (yeah, despite the tears that I start shedding whenever I talk to people about "end of January").

So in September, I was his chaperone. In October, I was his date. What does November bring for Joaqui and I? We are now roommates!

Tito F and Tita L are arriving today from California and will be staying at the house until Monday. Hence, Joaqui got booted out his room and is now rooming with me! Gosh, I do wonder what kinds of angsts this boy will have in the future. HaHa!

We Belong Together: Part I

Happiness is ...

Second Date

I haven't granted a second date to anyone here in Manila...until last night.

I could've gone to Tagaytay. I could've gone to the salon with Zara for some kumare bonding. I could've stayed at the condo and enjoyed having the place all to myself. But I didn't. Afterall, promises aren't made to be broken. And if your date is that pogi, how could you not go? HeHe.

Out of all the younger cousins, Joaqui is probably the most like me: he's quiet (huwag na kayong humirit! HaHa!), a man of a few words, hopeless romantic, movie-watcher, tambay sa bahay, internet addict, simple (Ninang called him promdi last night much to my amusement!), low-key, smart (*ahem), and...single? Single ba yan? HeHe. He always seeks my opinions regarding love and I'm happy to mold him into a great guy by virtue of my kadiring love advice. HeHe! The only thing I couldn't help him with last night was his hair.

J: Ate, marunong ka bang mag-style ng hair?
Me: Ha?

HeHe. Shoot, I can't even blowdry my own hair, no! LoL.

I thought "cousin" was the only title I held around here. Nope. Add to that "chaperone" and "date"...all positions Joaqui imposed on me in the last month. I'm really scared what my next role will be. Prom date? Naku po! I swear, it's been feeling like I'm re-living all of my teenage years. Take two daw para mawala ang mga angsts ko sa buhay. HeHe!

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While at Starbucks at 1 a.m. this morning,

Ninang: Yun na lang sa iyo (referring to a tall, sporty guy sitting all alone).
Me: Kanina ko pa nga yan tinitingnan.
Ninang: Kanina pa din nakatingin yan dito. Hindi ko lang alam kung ako tinitingnan or ikaw.

I think "age-defying" really runs in this family. HaHa!

Halfway Point

Three months down; three to go.

To Ate Ria:
Me on the otherhand is just plain confused about what I'm good at and what I actually like. So I figured, I just need to keep trying on shoes until I find the one that fits. Call me Cinderella.

Ate Ria's reply:
You are too smart to not be able to get a job there...or anywhere. You've got great insight and are a terrific writer. Maybe a job offer will come at midnight. Very Cinderella.

Ate had asked me if I was living the sweet life of leisure, no job, no school, and no worries. How I wish. How I wish that I have nothing to think about everyday. How I wish that being a bum means having the mentality, too. But, I don't. I'm a bum who's worrying about the very day that she's not a bum anymore.

As each day passes by, I keep thinking, "Man, that's another day closer to a trip back to Seattle." Pessimistic? Why yes, yes I am. HaHa. I know November and December will fly by and the next thing I know, it's going to be January. As much as I want to just be "steady" and keep it cool, I can't help but play scenarios in my head. Very sad...with tears and stuff. *SIGH.

I just find it so frustrating that I'm THIS close to getting a job, yet I can't seal the deal, you know? That's what pisses me off the most. It's like, I go to these interviews, do well, but then I don't end up with anything. Hmm, sounds like my lovelife. Kidding! LoL.

Dear God, it has always been career or lovelife. In case You haven't noticed, I don't have a lovelife! So please, pretty please, may I have a career? Like next month. Wait, next month after my Cebu/Bohol/Camiguin trip. HaHa! No seriously, yo quiero un trabajo ahora, por favor. But if You want to procrastinate (tawagin ba si God na procrastinator!), then I'll take a job before the end of January, too...just please let me know now that that's your plan for me. Stressed na ako eh.

I'm Adopted

Almost a year ago, I was in Florida with Pen, her two sisters, and her sisters' significant others. In other words, I was the stranger in the bunch, but not once did I feel like I wasn't part of their family. Ate Len took a day off to take me around, Jen cooked me breakfast and allowed me to use her Gap discount, and Pen went home after her classes to see me. Itay even invited me to come back for Christmas.

In Seattle, my supervisors always invite me over for dinner or get-togethers during special occasions. While on my flight from Seoul to Manila, I met Tita Rosalyn who made sure to give me her contact information and told me that I'm more than welcome to stay at their "humble" home in Cebu once I've made my way into the Visayas region. After telling her via text that I was enjoying my probinsya lifestyle in Tacloban, she told me that I should consider staying at their house a little bit longer in November. At Zara's wedding, I was the one riding with her in the bridal car. Whenever I'm at their house and both of her nephews are there, I get slobbery kisses reserved for those only in the family. With Kuya Heinz, need I say more? HeHe. Then, there's Ninang who hasn't kicked me out of this house three months into my overstaying. HeHe.

To that list, I can now add the Villasins of Tacloban. Raissa told her dad and sister that I was coming. Tito provided a car and driver during my entire stay in Tacloban while Camille tagged along and became my tourguide. Last night, I was even at their relatives' house for a family party. Take note that I have not met Raissa at all, yet I've taken a nap at her house and seen all the new additions to her house that even she has not seen after all these years. Crazy, eh?

All I can say is thanks. I feel that whereever I am in the world, I'll always have a family and that is such a good feeling. I just hope that not everyone visits Seattle all at the same time...we only have one spare bedroom at our house, you know. HeHe.

Every Little Bit

I've always wanted a little sister ever since I could remember. I'm glad that my being here in Manila has given me a chance to be an Ate. And I know that I shouldn't be the one giving advice to kids since I'm as confused as they are eventhough I'm so many years older than them, but I hope that I at least give them enough encouragement to believe that life is truly a journey worth taking. Naks! Yeah, binasa ko lang yan somewhere. HaHa!

Last night (this morning), I woke up at around 3:30 to find out that pinakyaw na naman ako ng lamok. Instead of smelling like a Fil-Am, these promdi mosquitoes must've smelled a Manila Girl and took full advantage. When I killed one, I saw all the evidence that I needed: it was all bloody. Eww!

I left the hotel at 10 and took a tricycle to McDo for my brunch. I just wore my green capris, a shirt, and my P50 Sponge Bob tsinelas that I bought with Zara before having our spontaneous salon trip a few weeks back. Gusgusin look ito kung tutuusin. If I wore the same outfit to Podium, I probably wouldn't be let in at all, but here, it was all good. How can you not fall in love with the probinsya lifestyle? HeHe.

After getting a kick out of my chicken nuggets with rice combo, I decided to ignore the convenience of P5 tricycle rides and walked around town. Yes, for the first time in three months, I was able to walk around a neighborhood because the air pollution wasn't a problem! Since it's tanghaling tapat, I was sweating buckets, but I didn't mind. I also turned red in the process: naarawan na si Casper! ;P

After seeing Douglas MacArthur's house and Rizal Park (yes, there's a Luneta in Tacloban!), I ended up hearing mass at Sto. Nino Church. I thought na magmumuni-muni ako sa tabing dagat dito pero I found the church to be the best place for some reflection. It was also cool to hear the mass in Waray-English. I'm looking forward to doing the same when I travel to other regions of this country.

At two, Camille picked me up and we went to San Juanico Bridge (longest bridge in SE Asia!), MacArthur Park, and the Villasin's house. I find it amusing that virtual friends are entering real life territory already (Raissa, kita ko na ang grad pic mo! HaHa!).

For an Ate-Little Sister Bonding, Camille and I had coffee and dinner together. Counseling session to the max! Since we're both the youngest in the family, we definitely have a lot of things in common and can relate to one another. It's just funny that we traveled so far to do such a thing when we could've done the same in Katipunan! Though it seems that it's much easier to get together here in Tacloban than in Manila. Yes, yet another example that "baliktad ang mundo."

I had a good time and I'm glad that I'm not really alone around here. =)

Love At First Sight

It was a quick romance. We said hi. We hugged. We kissed. We said goodbye. All in a span of one hour. Why do all good things come to an end?

I gotta say that Ethan puts all the torpe boys of Manila to shame. How old is Ethan? Oh, he's 2. HeHe. He sat in the same row as me on my Manila-Tacloban flight and charmed his way into my heart.

Yes, I'm in Tacloban. Why? Because Wow Philippines na! I need time to think about things and thought it's the perfect time to get away from chaotic Manila. Hence, here I am.

The good thing about traveling alone is that you're forced to talk to people you otherwise wouldn't have. I arrived at the domestic airport way too early for my 1 p.m. flight. Not content with my Kulay the iPod, I ended up talking to Aling Nene, who's on her way to Kalibo, Aklan to visit her mother in the hospital. Aling Nene is actually from Parang, Marikina which is just a few minutes away from San Mateo. Hay ang sarap makinig ng personal stories ng mga tao! Usi, ba? HeHe.

Then, I met Ethan on the plane and you know what happened from there. HeHe.

The downside of traveling alone? No one to take pictures of you, no one to say "Uy, may papa!" to, and here I am occupying one of two beds in my room.

And being the praning girl that I am, I'm still waiting for my lakas ng loob to arrive so that I could ride the tricycle to McDo. I haven't eaten a meal since breakfast ha!

Wish any of you guys was here!

Praise the Lord

Thirty minutes. In thirty minutes, Rachael can whip up a whole dinner in her show on The Food Network. In thirty minutes, you can get your car's oil changed. In thirty minutes, you can take me from Ortigas all the way home to San Mateo. Only thirty minutes! And with me in the car, it only seems like five minutes! (Tumahimik ka, Homer! LoL)

Me: Father, may gimik ka tonight?
Homer: Oo, sa church namin. Wala akong masyadong kilala doon. Sama ka?
Me: (after explaining *my* gimik that I was hoping to find someone to go with) Sige, game.

While sitting in Galleria, I thought to myself, "Teka lang, ako nagyaya pero bakit gimik niya ang nasunod?!" Mga magaganda talaga o, palaging naapi. Tsk. Tsk.

Last Friday, my gimik was at a school (don't even ask. HeHe!). This Friday's gimik was at GCF. Bagay na bagay sa wholesome image ko! Sa convent talaga ang bagsak ko nito pagdating ng panahon. HaHa! While being a "triangle" during the games, I met Genny with a G. Age? 7! Yes, hindi na ako nagtataka kung bakit ako single. Puro little kids ang kumakausap sa akin palagi! HeHe.

Genny: Do you watch "Cupids"?
Me: Yes, I've seen an episode. (That's such a lie and Pen knows it. LoL)
Genny: Do you know Gab Drilon?
Me: Yes.
Genny: He's my brother.

I told you guys, ako ang nilalapitan ng mga artista! It just comes naturally. HeHe. Afterwards, tambay sa Cafe Breton (naks, si MiNA may mga kasama sa coffeeshop! Himala! HaHa!). Pero sad ako kasi everywhere I go, when people introduce me to other people, palaging niyayaya ako sa future gimiks nila pero parang not realistic that I would actually make it to any of them kasi nga I live in San Mateo. Wala lang, nanghihinayang lang ako dun sa potential friendships. Asus, feeling sorry na naman si San Mateo Girl. HaHa!

So there, Kuya Heinz has introduced me to their whole angkan. Homer has introduced me to their church. Hmm. Sino next? Iko? Iko will introduce me to the whole subdivision kaya? HeHe!

Kapamilya

I've been upset the last few days because it sounds like I'm still frontpage news in the family chismis circle. With some 24 direct titos and titas and some 40 first cousins in two countries and five states, no one wants to be the subject of everyone's attention especially if he/she has never been in the headlines before. Well, I felt better today when I read a forwarded e-mail:

E-mail from Tito to L.A. Girl Cousin
i heard you're getting married. is that true?

Cousin's reply to Tito
no way! i'm not getting married!

Cousin's e-mail to her sisters and me
oh my gosh! why was i not in on this plan!? all of a sudden one day i hear I'M getting married!

FYI, it's not L.A. Girl Cousin who's getting married, but her younger brother. Reading the e-mail (and laughing out loud about it) made me realize that the facts about my being here in Manila may have been twisted and turned more than once before they reached the recipients. Hence, I shouldn't really take all the strong opinions and violent reactions to heart.

Let me just say that I'm here for myself, to find myself, and to be a better person altogether. I didn't make this move to hurt anyone nor am I rebelling. I did this to be happy according to my own personal definition.

I've always done what was right in all of my life so trust me when I say that what I'm doing is "right" at this point in time. Yes, it may sound crazy, but I trust you that no mental hospital will admit me in case you feel the need to bring me to one. I'm not here to do anything wrong, but to do something good...for myself. For once in my life, I'd like to be selfish and take care of my needs. Let me have the six months if that's the maximum time I can have in this country. Let me have the six months with some peace of mind from being understood and supported.

Donde Esta?

What do you do when your #1 tambay buddy is having a party of her own? Who the heck do you bring to that when your tambay buddy is usually the one you would ask to go to such an event? Tsk. Tsk.

And where have all my usual tambay buddies gone?! Kuya Heinz is in NYC. Ale is busy with projects. Tet is slaving away at work. Zara is "Ni hao"ing her way around Hong Kong Disneyland right this very minute.

Bakit ninyo ako iniwanan? Hindi na kayo naawa sa The Sawi and Unemployed! HeHe. Shoot. No wonder my mind is the noisiest it has ever been.

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Raissa: text nicco na lang
Me: ano naman itetext ko doon, "wish you were here"??? hahaha
Raissa: sira! ask for info kasi mas alam niya

Linawin kasi, people. Alam naman ninyo na iba ang takbo ng isip ko! HeHe.

Game Ka Na Ba?

Option #1: Travel alone this week to Cebu, Tagbilaran/Panglao Island, and Camiguin while yours truly is still waiting for my job offer

Option #2: Travel with The Fusers (ang ganda ng nickname!) in November to Cebu for Ad Congress

Yes, Option #2 makes the most sense. Afterall, haven't I been whining about not having travel buddies? Wasn't it super duper lonely when I traveled to Belgium and Hong Kong/China earlier this year because I was all alone? Didn't people tell me that I shouldn't travel alone in this country?

However, I'm really thinking that I'm going to get a job soon (wishing, hoping, and praying!). If I get a job, I won't get time off for Ad Congress. It will be another failed attempt to set foot in the Visayas! Blasphemy! Tragic even!

*SIGH. What to do, what to do.

Clueless

While watching women at Rustan’s yearly Frequent Shopper sale, I realized that I will never, ever, ever understand why women would spend so much money buying a designer bag for the purpose of holding their money when buying such a bag would leave them with no money at all.

Celebrity sightings of the last weeks (backlog!): Luis Alandi and this other ABS-CBN chick, Mico Aytono, JB Magsaysay, Alice Dixson, and President GMA

Wow Na!

It always comes up during my job interviews: Filipinos need to have faith in the Philippines more. My theory is if Filipinos would just venture out of Manila more often, then they'll realize how beautiful and precious this country really is. Didn't I say I was idealistic? I mean, if you battle crazy traffic everyday, get sick from all the pollution from PUVs, and everything else that comes with living in the city, then hell, yes, you'll hate this country with a quickness. That's why you need to see what the rest of this country has to offer (aside from Boracay and Palawan, okay?).

I was waiting for a big fiesta to jumpstart my Wow Philippines agenda and alas, the MassKara Festival is coming up. Imagine all the photo-ops with all the colorful costumes! I can think of a few crazy poses to show to Pen already. Imagine all the people you will get to meet! Imagine all the chicken inasal your stomach can take! Imagine seeing a balikbayan all giddy and stuff from finally setting foot in the Visayas region!

I found a travel buddy (who deserves a birthday celebration in Bacolod), and she found another travel buddy, but we need male travel buddies only because our loved ones would feel much better about letting us go if we had some. And please, don't flatter yourselves: I'm all about finding the promdi of my dreams in Bacolod. ;P

Once I start working, I can't venture out of town anymore so I got to do this now (Ale, do you hear me?). I've been here for two months already and my travel destinations have only been to uber exotic places like umm...uhh...The Podium, Shang, Galle, and Gateway (Tagaytay doesn't count since hello, it's only 1.5 hours away plus I was sick pa!). Come on, people! The Philippine DOT needs your pesoses! Promise, if you go, I won't bug you about Ad Congress in Cebu next month! Sige na! :: making sad puppy dog faces ::

Bloody Hell

I swear, I think God put me on this Earth to be an example to other humans of what is not normal. Oh be quiet, this is a serious entry. ;P

I just want things to normalize again. It's been two years for crying out loud. Two years too long. Although I've been told there's nothing to worry about, I know for a fact that this is not normal. Dealing with it is not fun. And yes, I've considered this as God's way of mocking me yet again. Why else would the cure to this ailment be so closely related to having a lovelife? Of all things! God is truly funny and I'm His favorite daughter to pick on. Hmph!

So, I've known it all along: I'm special. Even I got Tet to say, "Kakaiba ka!" Yes, and don't anyone dare forget it. HeHe!

Pump It Up

Last night, Tito refilled the gas tank while we were in Libis. Yes, we filled up at the gas station with the hanging pumps. How high tech is that! HeHe. Anyway, he started talking about how expensive the gas is nowadays and that a full tank now would cost P2,000! Holy moley!

Yes, last night, the little light bulb in my head finally lit up. I completely understand now. P2,000/week is just crazy. "I told you so" would be the right phrase to throw at me. I don't harbor any more ill will towards those who keep telling me that San Mateo is "too far." I have accepted the truth! Hallelujah! LoL.

But of course, much love and respect still go out to those who have made the trek to the boonies to see me, pick me up, and/or drop me off at home. You guys are still the coolest people in my book. If I ever get a pad in Ortigas, you guys get first visiting rights. The softies can wait. ;P

Speaking of the boonies, we didn't have internet connection for the past five days. Apparently, someone had stolen PLDT's copper phone cables (to sell). I didn't think I would ever use this phrase in the Philippines, but dang, that's just plain ghetto. Tsk. Tsk. I hope it doesn't happen again because I seriously had major withdrawals this past week and lugging Papa around the metropolis is just too stressful (says the praning girl). Me and my big problems strike again. HeHe!

Sign Here

Funny how the world works.

Kuya H was right: comments add more information about a topic. It has always been my wish that Haloscan would archive all of my website comments rather than deleting them after a few weeks. Sayang eh. Hence, it made me realize that I need to put back my guestbook on here. Yes, as old school as that may sound, guestbooks are great because they keep a good track of who has been on your site (you're such a geek, MiNA!) and entries never get deleted. Proof?

Here's an entry from November 5, 2003:

it's fun reading your blog mina. hope you find the right job AND guy for you :)

Those words were from none other than Kuya H himself. Who knew that two years later, he would be working on both issues! HaHa! Lesson learned? Be careful what kinds of words you tell someone whether in person, e-mail, or guestbook! You never know when your words will haunt you. ;P

But yes, the laughter should be aimed at me dahil two years later, I still have the same problems. Kaya nga "walang kamatayang career and lovelife" ang tawag, di ba? HeHe. But if Kuya H's predictions are correct from our de-briefing session on Tuesday (yes, nagsama na naman ang mga taong walang social life! LoL), the career problem should be solved soon. At least that's what we're hoping for dahil pagod na ako sa kaka-answer ng mga parehong interview questions and Kuya H is tired of counseling me about my job-hunting woes. Or, baka mas tired yan about being a default driver...but that's related to Project #2 and not Project #1, Kuya. HaHa!

Anywho, sign the guestbook if you've never done so. And if you got the time, become an usi and check out the past entries. The entries from various torpes, Pen, and lost surfers are quite entertaining. Enjoy!

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I saw Dubai on Monday night. Yes, on a Monday night, I was actually out and even watched a movie. Yihee! It's so unusual that it was worth noting. HeHe. Anyway, I should've known better than to listen to all the hype: the movie wasn't all that. Sure, I cried at a couple of scenes, but ho hum, ho hum nonetheless. Plus, contrary to popular belief, it's not a romantic movie. But in case you find yourself in the theatre, pay attention to Claudine's character: who does she remind you of? =) She made me realize na OFW pala ako...sa Pinas lang nga. LoL.

Winners

If there was one, I think I have earned my wanna-be Atenista award.

Where was I today? It was Thursday so I was in Araneta Coliseum. Watching what? The Ateneo women's basketball game against Adamson. Can I just say that they're awesome? They were down 11 points half-way through the second quarter, but made it only a one-point deficit by half-time. After staging full-court presses and maneuvering against them, they eventually won the game. Go Lady Eagles!

Imagine, I was there while the rest of the real alumni were busy doing their own thing. Die hard na yata ako. LoL. All I need now is to memorize the cheers and chants and I can fool anyone to believing I really graduated from Ateneo. LoL.

Anyway, today I found out that a certain "artista" doesn't have a car. He lives somewhere in Quezon City (or Manila, depending on how you look at it) and his girlfriend lives in Alabang. What does he do to see her? He takes the bus! What was my immediate reaction after I found this out? "Does he have an older brother?" LoL.

What guys forget is that women really notice their efforts. We know when you guys don't try hard enough and we know when to applaud you guys when you do. When Tet told me that Jason gave her an iPod, I wasn't in awe because it was expensive; I applauded Jason because he made it ready-to-use by filling it with songs before he gave it to Tet. Swoon! When a guy I know bought a McDo caramel sundae and wrote "Good luck" on the cup and delivered it to the girl's house as a way to wish her well before her stage debut, I couldn't help but be proud of the guy. Galing!

Someday, people, someday. ;)

Interview #7: Diversified Communications Agency

On the day of my second-month anniversary here in Manila, I thought I was going to come to my seventh interview with tears in my eyes. I didn't and I know God was totally looking after me. How else could I explain that I made it to Ortigas from San Mateo in 45 minutes?

My interview was at 2 p.m. The driver arrived at the house at 1 p.m. from doing his daily errands. With a huge scowl on my face and tears waiting to fall down my cheeks, I got in the car thinking that this was by far the worst situation I have been in on the day of a job interview. Realizing that I was not a happy camper, our driver offered to take me to the Quezon Ave. MRT stop rather than my usual LRT Katipunan stop. When I got to Quezon Ave., I immediately thought that I had a slight chance of making it on time: the ticket line was relatively short (compared to the usual line at the Cubao stop). After a few seconds I got in line, the other ticket window opened and I quickly moved over there. Within a few seconds, I made it through the turnstile and a few seconds later, the train arrived. Go, God!

Once I got to the Shaw Blvd. stop (took me only fifteen beautiful minutes from Quezon Ave.), I opted to take the stairs instead of the crowded escalator. I don't know how the Shaw stop works, but this time around, the entrance to Shangri-La Mall was right there in front of me. I didn't have to go around the building, take an escalator and such. A basta, no hassle at all! After getting past the long line of bag inspection, I zoomed towards the elevator which took me to the first level of Shang. Once there, the security guard flagged me a taxi and off I went to the heart of my favorite yuppy-town, Ortigas.

I arrived at my destination at 1:45 with 15 minutes to spare to cool my body down and look presentable. First impression? I can call this building home! Why? The bathroom, err, C.R. was well lit and there was an attendant at hand. Yes, who cares about job benefits like health insurance when you get a clean bathroom daily! LoL.

The interview went great. I met up with a senior account executive and group head for two separate divisions of the company. We all clicked. I was called "impressive" and "patriotic." I called them "young" and "creative." Good times, I tell ya! I walked away with both of their business cards; they told me that my second interview will be next week with the executive director. =)

After chilling at Starbucks (did I just say "chilling"?!), I took a taxi to go back to Shang and was able to see what's around that very building. For one, a Seattle's Best is downstairs. To the right of the building is a Starbucks. What's to the left of the building? Jollibee! Oh gyeah! I will never have to bring lunch ever again! LoL. Ang babaw talaga! HaHa!

I really don't want to get my hopes up, though. If this second interview was like the one before, then I know that the battle has just begun. I know that I'm going to be asked again about my citizenship and my sincerity about staying in this country. I know that once again I'll have to make my potential employer believe that they have nothing to be afraid about. After that, there's that little issue called salary expectation.

Hurdles, man, hurdles! I just hope that God is there again with me next week. I want this...more than a boyfriend. And boy, does that say a lot! LoL.

My Goodness

Me: sis....pretty naman ako di ba? i mean, im not ugly naman, di ba?
Pen: oo naman
Pen: you know what, you're cute kasi
Pen: most guys prefer sexy over cute lol
Me: so parang Barbie doll nga?
Pen: go LANDI-FY yourself para maging sexy
Me: hindi nga kaya no...pang-wholesome nga ako! lol
Pen: i think so
Pen: yun nga eh
Pen: wholesome ka pero most guys want someone they can lust at
Pen: so just pray to papa God (oh di ba so wholesome talaga) to send you a wholesome guy din

So apparently my effect on guys is that they want to pinch my cheeks and pat me on the head instead of asking me out for a second date. I bring them joy and entertainment because I'm "very pinoy for a Fil-Am." I'm the girl they wish they could take home to meet their parents, but not the girl they actually spend hours driving home after work. The truth hurts talaga! LoL.

Actually, I've known it all along. Being the disillusioned person that I am, I truly believe that my counterpart is somewhere in this darn metropolis. Dammit, get out of the seminary now! Now, I say!

Three's Company

My lovelife is becoming more of a comedy rather than a tragedy. What's worse than not having a date on a Saturday? Going on someone else's date as...a chaperone!

Last night, after I got home, I found out that my cousin was going on his very first one-on-one date today. As with all the love-related stories that I've heard before, I got all giddy hearing all the details. My cousin even told me about a thing he did for the girl days before and I must say that it was a "winner." He then asked me for dating advice, like how to keep the conversation going during a date. Imagine that! I was being asked for dating advice AND it was about talking. Me, a talkative dating expert?! Who knew you could be an expert at something you don't have experience in! HeHe. After making sure to say "Just be yourself" (Naks!), I went to bed with a smile on my face. Ahh, young love. How sweet it is to be young and angst-free. LoL.

Well, today was The Day. He came into my room to ask me if I was coming with him (I had this running joke with Ninang that I could be his chaperone, but I didn't know that the idea was going to be entertained!). I asked him whether he wanted me to come or not and being the nice cousin that he is, he said that it was okay for me to come (That's pity for you! LoL). We established a plan and off we went to Shangri-La (Yes, Kuya H, na naman!).

After getting there, I was told of a little "problem." Being the cool cousin that I am *ahem, I agreed to help out. When The Girl arrived, I immediately went to her and said, "Hi Girl! Bakit ang tagal mo?!" with matching beso-beso on the cheek. Her younger brother left her in my safe company with no questions asked. I then brought The Girl to Pinsan J. O, di ba? What was the comment afterwards? "Ang galing umarte ni Ate Min!" Kids, kids, with age comes experience. It all comes naturally! LoL.

Before the movie started, The Girl and I spent some time talking to eachother. After the date, my cousin asked, "O, so ano pinagusapan ninyo?" After I told him, he said, "Naks, ang dami ninyong napagusapan ha! Bonded na kayo!" Well, I'm a pleasant person as long as you give me a chance. Just ask Iko! LoL.

So here's the punchline: When I was buying my movie ticket,

Me: Umm, F14 na lang.
Clerk: Isa lang po?
Me (thinking in my head): Dammit, yes, isa lang! Kailangan pa bang ipaalala sa akin na nagiisa ako?! Hindi pa puwedeng mag-isang manuod ng "A Perfect Catch"? Kapag maganda ba kailangan may lovelife (ROFL!)? Kasalanan ko ba na nagiisa ako? Ha? Ha?

Touchy, touchy. HeHe.

Celebrity sighting of the day: Joseph Yeo and Rico Villanueva (there was another guy with them, but I had no idea who he was)

You Had Me At "Hello"

1. He's cute.
2. He's lovable.
3. He's friendly.
4. He's a great conversationalist.
5. He likes to collect things. "2 Batman. 2 Spiderman."
6. He has a great sense of style. "Who's that on your shirt?" "Dash."
7. He's smart. "Is he from...The Lion King? Cinderella?" "No, The Incredibles."
8. He laughs at my jokes. "No more cape? How will he fly? He will walk na lang?" ::laughs::
9. He likes me.
10. He will see me again.

Meet my new friend, Iko:

That's Renzo Cruz Kuya Heinz on the left. Huwag ninyong pansinin; extra lang yan. HaHa!

Kuya H introduced me to Iko in hopes of expanding my network of friends. After an awkward introduction (if I may say so myself!), Iko started talking to me on his own about Batman and his current handicap (the broken cape). Iko, thanks for talking to me. You made me miss my nephews and niece, but that's okay. And as with all of my promises, I will buy you candy the next time I see you. And your Tito Kiki was right about you and I, this is the beginning of a beautiful relationship. Friends forever! ;P

Kumare Weekend

Day I:
Like what I told Zara, I have no idea how to even begin to write about the events that unfolded last night. It was too fun, too revealing, too quirky, and too ... R-rated? LoL.

My Friday's text to Zara read: "Alam ko na may asawa ka na. Alam ko na may anak ka na. Pero gimik tayo tomorrow night from 8-12mn. Eastwood. May driver tayo! First and last time ito. Sige na." Knowing me well enough to have heard the desperation through the words I sent, she agreed to accompany me without any hesitation or excuses. Walang pahirapan! Game agad! Yan ang kaibigan na maasahan! HaHa!

After being dropped off in Libis by the relatives, Zara and I had to undergo a major test: to cross the very busy E. Rodriguez Avenue. Granted that this was the very first time in sooo many weeks that I've actually been out of the house on a weekend (besides going to church), I guess I was willing to do anything to make the situation work out including risking my life.

As if we were trying to re-live our elementary school days, we held hands like second graders do. Actually, no, I grasped her hands really tightly and she couldn't do anything about it. HeHe. She also made sure to get in front of me. No, she wasn't trying to be brave or put her life on the line for me, she was just smart enough not to let the dumb girl get ran over dahil konsensya pa niya yan! HaHa! With my reflective, bling-bling gimik clothes to warn traffic, we managed to cross the road unharmed and as beautiful as ever. Pucha, kaninong website ito?! Ang kapal nung nagsusulat eh! HaHa!

After an artery-clogging dinner and realizing that shopping is not in our immediate agenda, we decided to spend the next 4.5 hours sitting on our butts and talking the night away. It made me realize that there are just some things that cannot be said via 15 years' worth of snail mail. Such topics are:

• Anatomy (*ahem)
  
• Psychotic exes of exes
  
• The color white (*ahem)
  
• Quarter life crisis and its "side effects"
  
• Extra-curricular activities of our friends (*ahem)

Through it all, I learned that I'm really an undeniably good girl. Lintik, puwede akong patayuan ng monumento sa lagay na ito! Pero kaya lang siguro naging inosente kasi wala ako sa tabi ni Zara all these years! Kahit best of the best yan sa St. Scho and engineering grad, maldita yan at naghahasik ng dilim sa kanino man! LoL.

*SIGH. I had a lot of fun. This was definitely a moment to remember (Tissue, please! LoL). And to all the single, 25-30 year-old males of this country, thank Zara. Before you go to bed tonight, just go ahead and say thanks quietly. If you're lucky, you'll know why later on. ;P

Day II:
As if getting home at 2 a.m. wasn't enough, we still spent today together. I had lunch with Zara, Zara's mom, sisters, and nephews, and as always, I was feeling like a part of the family again. Matagal na nga akong nagpapaampon pero ayaw ni Tita. LoL. Afterwards, we spent a couple of hours at the salon. Chismisan kagabi at parlor today...babae nga kami! HeHe.

And, just like last night, Zara taught me another thing today: how to ride an "FX." Sis, napaka-masa ng mga lessons mo! LoL. Kulang na lang manood tayo ng Lovestruck. HaHa! So there, I can ride another public transportation vehicle AND cross a national road! Trying to be (and acting like) a local has never been this easy! Naks!

Celebrity sighting of the weekend: John and CamillePratts

Life Track

Today was brought to you by the letters P, M, and S. I spent the entire day with iTunes to get by (since being around people and crying my eyes out is not an option! HeHe!). So, here's the current soundtrack of my life:

10. The Journey - Lea Salonga
What a journey it has been
And the end is not in sight
But the stars are out tonight
And they’re bound to guide my way
When they’re shining on my life
I can see your better day
I won’t let the darkness in
What a journey it has been

09. Reflection - Christina Aguilera
There's a heart that must be free to fly
That burns with a need to know
The reason why
Why must we all conceal
What we think
How we feel
Must there be a secret me
I'm forced to hide
I wont pretend that I'm
Someone else for all time

08. With a Smile - Eraserheads
Lift your head, baby, don't be scared
Of the things that could go wrong along the way
You'll get by with a smile
You can't win at everything but you can try

07. You've Got a Friend - James Taylor
Hey, ain’t it good to know that you’ve got a friend?
People can be so cold
They’ll hurt you and desert you
Well they’ll take your soul if you let them
Oh yeah, but don’t you let them

06. Love Song For No One - John Mayer
Staying home alone on a Friday
Flat on the floor looking back
On old love
Or lack thereof
After all the crushes are faded
And all my wishful thinking was wrong
I’m jaded
I hate it

05. Through the Rain - Mariah Carey
I can make it through the rain
I can stand up once again
On my own and I know
That I’m strong enough to mend
And every time I feel afraid
I hold tighter to my faith
And I live one more day
And I make it through the rain

04. I Want to Know What Love Is - Sarah Geronimo
In my life
There's been heartache and pain
I dont know if I can face it again
Can't stop now I've traveled so far
To change this lonely life

03. Walking Away - Craig David
I'm walking away from the troubles in my life
I'm walking away oh to find a better day
I'm walking away from the troubles in my life
I'm walking away oh to find a better day
I'm walking away

02. Not That Kinda Girl - Jojo
I'm not your everyday, 'round the way
Don't go bar-hoppin', chillin' on the block
On a cell phone frontin'
Never that, cuz I'm not that kinda girl

01. Tumatakbo - Mojofly
Tatangapin nalang ba ang mapait na tadhana
O kaya’y
Tatangapin nalang ba na ako’y
Sadyang hindi pinagpala
Tigilan na ang drama
Punasan na ang luha

Since I can't carry a tune, please sing your hearts out for me while I shake all the blues away. =) Oh, and if you're a fellow sawi, the Mojofly song is the current anthem to beat! Catch it on MYX! Your choice, your music...dammit, I should be a VJ! LoL.

Take Your Pick

Tet and I went to the Ateneo-La Salle game today. All my giddyness of seeing one of the biggest rivalries of all time (well, at least in this country) disappeared after seeing Tet fuming mad over the score by the third quarter. LoL. Die hard ito! Hindi ko kinaya! LoL.

And like what we always do when we get together, Tet and I told eachother our current problems. Hers is usually about her friends while mine is the walang kamatayang career and lovelife.

For the record, let me just say that they are correlated with one another: when one is going bad, the other is going well and vise versa. It's like God really doesn't want me to have both. Tet, the positive thinker that she is, made sure to point out to me, "Sis, kapag may boyfriend ka naman, you don't need money!" Umm, yeah, this is from the same girl who is wishing that we become neighbors in the same apartment building in Ortigas. ;P

Magmadre na lang kaya ako? LoL. Job and lovelife in one yun, di ba? HeHe!

Interviews # 5 & 6

Powder blue is power blue.

During the days of one group oral presentation per class every quarter, the guys would always wear their powder blue long-sleeved, button-up shirts. If we were to pick a crayon to describe the color, it would be periwinkle, but a little bit darker. Anyway, there would always be several guys wearing this color during presentation days and it was just THE professional color of choice. Not to be outdone, I have one as well.

When I was getting prepared this morning for Interviews 5 & 6, I noticed something, though...

Me: Ninang, mukha ba akong tiga-SM?
Ninang: Hindi. Mukha kang tiga-Rustan's!

*SIGH. I may need to put that shirt away while I go to all of my interviews. LoL.

- - -

Interview #5 was for a publishing company. HR Guy fired questions, I answered. When he asked if I had any plans of going back to the U.S. anytime soon, I said, "No immediate plans" and he believed me unlike everyone else who have interviewed me before. I like that! He asked me about my citizenship and he didn't give me any grief over it. I like that! He told me what they're offering for the job (and my heart sank). He endorsed my application and I met with the Marketing Director. I took a test and that was that. I like the position and I think I can use the skills that I have and use them in a field that I'm truly interested in. However, I would have to kiss moving out goodbye. Hence, if they end up calling me, there is a huge chance that I may have to turn them down unless the benefits outweigh the meager salary.

Interview #6 is for the same company as Interview #2. I thought I came there for salary negotiations, but it was simply the second interview with HR and the first interview with two of my potential supervisors. I have a couple of issues, but the biggest one was convincing them that I am not going to go back to Seattle anytime soon. *SIGH. Seriously, it was such a huge issue that it came up several times during 1.5 hours. How exactly can you make someone believe you without him/her knowing who you are? I need to solve this problem if I am to get a job in this country. Please let me know any of your bright ideas. I sure can use it!

Interview #4

Another week, another interview.

Since "The TV Station" and this company today are sister companies, I was expecting the worst already. When I was handed an application form to fill out when I was already told to bring a copy of my resume, I cringed. But all went well. I even made the interviewer laugh...

HR Girl: Any plans of getting married anytime soon? (Pati ba mga strangers umaasa din?!)
Me: None. My friends are all getting married one-by-one. I'll let them go first and see what happens to them.
HR Girl: :: insert laughs here ::

Anyway, you know what I've noticed? HR here has this thing of recommending you to other positions. I mean, there's nothing wrong with that; it's just that I've never experienced that in the States. I mean, if you applied for the wrong position, sorry na lang. But here, HR takes the time to sell you another position other than the one you're applying for. Today, HR wanted me to be a Sales Executive rather than the marketing position that I applied for. I turned that down with a quickness. If these HR people just knew about my lovelife, then they would probaby know that sales isn't really my forte. ;P

But that wasn't all. She also suggested that I tell my parents to buy me one of the condos right around the corner (because I told her that I would like to move out once I have a job to be closer to civilization). Yeah right. My mom would drag me back to Seattle with her bare hands if I ever did that. HeHe.

Salary negotiations for my Ortigas-located job on Wednesday. Wish me luck that I get enough money! It's all about being able to afford an apartment in the National Capital Region! I didn't know that I was a promdi until I saw the "You are now leaving the NCR" road sign today on my way home. Man, no wonder I have this thing for promdis! Tsk. Tsk. Love your own nga naman! LoL.

Celebrity sightings for the past few weeks: Sandy And0long, Amy Austr1a, and Lorna Tolentin0 at Edsa Shang Hotel; William Mart1nez and Yay0 Aguila at Sweet Inspirations; Regine T0lentino and husband at Edsa Shang Mall.

Menace to Society

I hate torpes.

While most women (who are all attached probably) cheer on the local torpe to keep doing what he’s doing, I, on the otherhand, just roll my eyes. Torpes make my life a living hell. Okay, okay, that was a bit harsh. I’m just saying that being single sucks and the torpes of the world aren’t exactly helping anyone around here.

Exactly one week ago, my 17-year-old male cousin and I had a bonding moment. I asked him about his lovelife and he laid out all the details for me, hoping that I could give him some advice. At that time, things weren’t going well and I told him to go find another girl who was worth his time. I told him, “Pogi ka naman. Tapos, here in the Philippines, it’s the norm for the guy to seek after girls. Kaming mga babae, we can’t do that. We just sit and wait. My point is that you have the power to find a girl who will love you just as much as you love her.”

Not to oppress my fellow women, but you got to agree that it’s not a part of the culture around here for the girl to go around and ask the guy out. I mean you could and I assume some guys would actually like that, but generally speaking, it’s just not done around here. Hence, the guys got to ask; the guys have to make the move. If the guys don’t, then all the single people in this country will be home every Friday blogging like me. You don’t want that; trust me. HeHe.

My point is that even if the guy is romantic, it doesn’t mean much if he doesn’t actually show it to the girl. Even if the guy is a good guy, it doesn’t mean much if he’s stuck at home just thinking about the good things he will do for the girl. You got to walk the walk and talk the talk, fellas. In other words, “Magpakalalake ka!”

Yes, it’s easier said than done. I will never ever know what it’s like to be a guy (Yes, regardless of my un-girly ways, I will never know what it’s like to be a guy!). I understand that. I also understand that as humans, our ego and superegos need to be protected. Getting rejected sucks. I know that for a fact. But, we got to do what we got to do. If we want something, go for it. Take the risk. Afterall, who would want a guy who doesn’t have the balls to do what he needs to do in life? Guys like those were the ones who died during the caveman days because they didn’t venture out and get the food that they needed or the girl they needed to procreate. You don’t want to be like them, do you?

All I really want is for everyone to be happy and what we fail to realize is that our happiness depends on us. Life is there for our taking; love is there for our taking. At my age, wasting time isn’t really in my agenda anymore. “You like me? Yes? Good. You don’t? Okay, let me find someone else who does.” It’s as easy as that. Let’s not prolong the agony. Cut to the chase. Be honest. Whatever the outcome may be, at least you know the truth. I would rather have the truth as quickly as possible rather than a lifetime of “what ifs.”

Caveat: There is also a fault in “feeling hanep/pogi” so when I say go for what you want, proceed with caution. And yes, the counterpart of the torpes are the pakipots. If you decide to continue being a torpe, damn, find a pakipot. Magsama kayo and let me know the outcome of that relationship. Ewan ko lang kung may mapapala kayo sa mga buhay ninyo! I sound bitter again. Tsk. Tsk. HaHa! Peace to all!

I Would Go the Distance

During dinner a few minutes ago,

Me: Anong oras kayo aalis tomorrow morning?
Ninang: 5:30.
Me: Ngii!
Ninang: Bakit, saan ka ba pupunta bukas?
Me: Wala lang. Tambay lang wherever.
Ninang: Ang hirap naman na wala kang kasama.
Me: Sanay na.
Ninang: Friday na Friday, walang nagyayaya sa 'yo?

Ouch! Talk about a deadly one-liner! I'm surprised that I didn't shed a tear or two right there and then. LoL.

I blame Kuya Heinz and my big mouth for my being alone every single Friday night. I should have never, ever, ever claimed that I lived in some city in Rizal. I vividly remember Kuya Heinz asking me how he could ever sell me to someone: "Pare, may ipapakilala ako sa 'yo. Maganda, mabait, matalino, pero pare, kailangan mong ihatid sa San Mateo."

Then, we also have Tet who told me that guys have this certain "Location Quotient," that if a girl lived far, guys would think twice about dating her. *Sniff. *Sniff.

Sige na nga, career na lang nga muna. I get the hint already. LoL.

Sawi Girls Unite

I'm sorry to all the 25-30 year-old, single, with a car, males of this country. I'm sorry because I was cursing the living daylights out of all of you today at about 3 p.m. Granted that yes, I did it all silently, but shame on me for thinking that you guys were the problem.

I was just thinking that instead of sitting in the back of a taxi cab, I could've been sitting shotgun in your car. Instead of having my hands on my purse, I could've been holding hands with you. Instead of sitting in traffic (because of those rallyistas at the PP Monument), we could've been sitting somewhere together in the comforts of say, a movie theatre or something. And when I handed P200 to the taxi driver who took me from Power Plant to Katipunan, I knew that I wouldn't have had to do that if I had you. All together now, "Aww." HeHe.

Anyway, I spent the middle part of my day with none other than the soon-to-be Atty. Rosa. On her website, she sounds like a shoe-crazed, shopping-obsessed woman. On YM, she sounds like a boy-crazy sixteen-year-old. In her text messages, she sounds like an intelligent, mature woman who knows how to speak English well. In person, she's all of the above, but much crazier in person. LoL. Daig ako nito!

After having lunch and getting my brows threaded, we decided to hang out at Starbucks to "check out the goods." Grabe, there should be a rule in the Philippines that states that guys can't look at girls if they're not going to approach them. Nakakapikon eh. HaHa. Anyway, Rosa concluded that I prefer the "geeky" types (I'd like to refer to them as the intelligent-looking ones) while she would rather have the "badboy" AND "casually-dressed" types. I'm glad we're not going for the same demographic, fellow sawi girl. LoL.

Rosa disappointed me though. All this time, I thought of myself as cool for making people believe that I'm just another Filipino who grew up in this country, thanks to my Tagalog-speaking ways. Rosa, however, pointed out that I may know Tagalog, but how I say my vowels gives my identity away. A-E-I-O-U, must start reading those Tagalog comics! LoL. At least I don't roll my Rs when I say words like "parang" ha! HeHe.

Good times, fun times. Thanks for taking time away from studying to see me, Rosa! I'm looking forward to "Luneta after the bar." Please continue to stalk those Atenista boys for me; I'm afraid I won't try to venture out to Rockwell again without a driver in tow. I'll try to make do with the Ortigas yuppies. ;P

MNC = Multi-National Channel

I'm happy. Happy, happy, happy. =D

Part I:
I had a 10:30 interview at a multi-national television channel. Two weeks ago, I got stood up. Today certainly made up for it. What's there to say? I felt at home. I felt respected. I felt like I was fulfilling my dream. Naks!

When I tried to hand over my resume, I was told, "I already have this. You already e-mailed this to me." Music to my ears, people! When I tried to say that I'm a Marketing student, I was told, "Me, too. I don't believe in having just one track around here." I swear, I wanted to hug every single person in that room. ::wiping a tear::

After the general manager, I spoke separately to two other people who could potentially be my direct supervisors. No complaints at all. I was not ready for any of the questions they threw at me, but I did well (well enough to be given their business cards). Who knew that my pop culture knowledge could come in handy during a job interview!

God, let them realize my importance; let them make me a regular employee rather than a contractual one; let them offer me enough money to be able to move out of the house and get a place of my very own in the city; let them make me the third Seattle-ite in the company.

Part II:
After getting in the car, I started receiving texts one after the other, all unrelated by the way. One was from Pare, and sure enough, what she told me was true (not like I was thinking you were a liar, Pare, but I had to see it to believe it! LoL).

"hey i know someone. she's in manila right now. she's really great inspite of her antipatika ways. bwahahaha. email me if you want her name and number. :) (i'm serious)."

Yes, I may throw a pity party every single time I talk about my lovelife on here, but please do take care of me, too, when you're trying to help me out. Unless you're the sibling or close friend of the one you're recommending, please don't bother sharing my phone number. Wait, I'm sounding like an ungrateful person. LoL. What I'm trying to say is, please send over a picture and complete profile of the person to me first before any numbers get exchanged. ;P

Part III:
For lunch, I met up with Alessa at The Podium. Seriously, this girl is my savior for never making me feel too lonely in Manila. =) And to add icing to the cake, Jimbo joined us. Finally, he made time for me. I haven't seen him for four weeks already and he dares call me his cousin. Nagtatampo na naman! HaHa!

And call us bored because we decided to bowl after our gluttony! Did any of us know how to bowl? Absolutely not. As proof, I even broke a nail...and sweated (eww, I know). I was the kulelat one out of the three of us, hence, I'm now actually interested in taking bowling lessons. Afterall, how many women bowlers do YOU know? Exactly! Makes me feel empowered just thinking about it. HeHe.

*SIGH. I like these kinds of days...when I can get another person to hang out with me...during the day. Ang saya!

Here Comes The Other Bride

I just got back from getting my body measurements taken - the second time this year. Yes, folks, I will once again be part of a wedding; I will be a secondary sponsor for Mayie's wedding this January. Kinakareer talaga ang pagaabay! When one of my cousins found out, she said, "Ate Min, grabe, ikaw na siguro yung next na ikakasal!" Please let me know also who the groom will be and maybe I will believe you! LoL.

Zara and Jerwin. Mayie and Dennis. Tet and Jason. Kuya Heinz and Ate Ambie. What do they all have in common? I'm their token single friend. Hmph. LoL. It was funny nga earlier because Mayie asked me if I wanted to watch Nina live daw. So it's going to be Mayie and Dennis, Dennis' sister and her boyfriend, and me. So sabi ko, "OP na naman ako diyan!" LoL. Though I don't mind hanging out with couples because I do get all warm and fuzzy seeing them all happy, but syempre, it makes me think about what I'm missing out on, right? Slightly jealous lang naman. HaHa!

Anyway, it turns out that Dennis' family and my family know eachother. What's funnier is when Dennis and one of my cousins were still in their pre-teens, tinutukso pa daw sila dati. It's such a small world! But if it's such a small world, bakit hindi ako makahanap ng papa? Lintik, ilang years ko na yan sinasabi?! Gasgas na! LoL.

Hay, so the topic of going to the gym came up numerous times tonight. I want to na talaga. It's just that I don't know how to get my butt to Fitness First's Cainta branch on a regular basis. Man, I want to be so pretty in that fuschia dress in January! Sana lang nga din, pogi ang ka-partner ko. Sana lang, Mayie, sana lang. Ayusin mo yan. LoL.

I Liked The Way You Worked It, No Diggity, No Doubt

Butterflies in my stomach. Check. Fear of the unknown. Check. Trauma from last interview. Check. Advice from everyone. Check.

I had another interview (but with a non-media company) this afternoon. Maybe God wanted me to prove to you all that I'm not stupid for thinking the way I did when I went to my TV station interview on Monday and that's why He made sure that all my expectations were met this time around. Thank you, God...and HR Girl (for having a copy of my resume in front of you).

Result? I have a second interview with the HR Manager next week for salary negotiations. Having worked for governments all this time, I never had to negotiate salaries. Hence, I need all the help I can get because I don't want anything to go wrong this time around. Please pray your hearts out for me.

It's Like That, Y'all

I will not stay up until 2 a.m. to talk to Pen again. I will not stay up until 2 a.m. to talk to Pen again. I will not stay up until 2 a.m. to talk to Pen again. Thou shall be in bed by midnight forever and ever and ever.

Anyway, I needed therapy because of what happened yesterday. After 24 hours, I think I'm in a better state to talk about it in a civilized manner.

I’d like to think that I’m open-minded. I understand that we’re all different and that we have our own ways of doing things. Yet, time and time again, Filipinos have a way of showing me that I’m not open-minded enough. Let me give you a timeline:

1:30 - I arrived at a TV station
1:40 - HR Girl asks me if I had a copy of my resume. I said no. She said to fill out an application form
2:00 - I turned in a completed application form
3:00 - I was still staring at the walls unattended
3:45 - After two whole hours, I was led inside to take a psychological test
4:05 - I finished answering 156 questions; I was led outside again
4:20 - HR Girl finally gives me the time of day
4:40 - "I will call you"

First of all, I didn't know that I had to bring a copy of my resume. American Girl thought that if a company asked her for an interview, then they already had a copy of her resume. Okay, I learned my lesson.

Second, let's talk about the application form. Most notable "what the hell are these questions for?": blood type, height, weight, Pag-ibig number, sketch your residential address (as in, draw!), and two 50-word essay questions on the back. All together now, "The hell?!"

Third, I was told that my interview was at 2 p.m. I even confirmed it via text the day before. Why the hell did I spend two hours staring at the walls?! I understand Filipino Time, but this was in a professional setting! Do we not care about the company image?

Fourth, why did I have to take a test before I got some lip service? Why are you using a test booklet from 1975? Why did it have questions about pre-marital s3x and falling in love?

Fifth, the interview questions were just traumatizing: "What are your parents' and siblings' occupations?", "Do you have a boyfriend here or in the States?", "Why didn't you major in 'Mass Com'?", blah, blah, blah...

If the Philippine corporate world wants to be like this, then okay, I'm willing to submit to it regardless of how "old school" their practices may be. What I'm pissed about is the two hours of wasted time. It’s one thing to make me wait; it’s also another thing to make me take a test for nothing. If you don’t think your time is worthy, I think your time and mine are.

For the record, I’m here because I want to. I traded my whole life to be here in the Philippines because dammit, I love this country and its people (itayo ako ng monumento, please!). Don’t doubt my sincerity when I say that I’m here to stay and work my butt off. Yes, I didn’t major in Communications (because we don't have "Mass Com" in the U.S.), but I’d like to think that I have the skills to do well in this field. I’m here because I’m passionate about the work that I'm trying to get and I think that’s worth more than getting any entry-level “Mass Com” graduate who is applying anywhere just to earn a living (in my very biased opinion, of course).

If you work in Human Resources in the Philippines, care to enlighten us all? I'd like to understand your processes. Please make me understand your ways. Please, oh, please!

Missing You

It’s been a month, people. I don’t know if I should congratulate myself for making it this far or I should start cursing myself for still sticking around.

Reality has kicked in, though. Nowadays, I have to beg people to take time out of their usual (and normal!) lives to hang out with me. Flashback to a month ago, I had to pull out my planner to schedule people’s invitations. Simply put, people don’t think I’m going away anymore. LoL.

I miss the family (but not the drama). I miss having a car. I miss the convenience and cleanliness of Seattle. I miss my DVD collection. I miss biatching to Pen each and every day. I miss having a position in a familial hierarchy. I miss only taking half an hour max to get to places. I miss seeing different ethnicities (whenever I see white people at the malls here, I start smiling!). I miss Target and Costco. I miss not being criticized about my clothes, weight, quietness, my whole being. I miss VH1. I miss the comfortable weather. I miss doing everything myself. I miss the public library. I miss hip-hop dance classes. I miss not being needy and KSP. I miss not feeling poor and not having to budget my money. I miss being content with just being at home. I miss conversations with strangers. I miss not having my cellphone tied to my hip. I miss buying stuff on eBay. I miss snail mails. I miss not being eaten by mosquitoes whenever I’m wearing shorts. I miss being confused because I’m finally here to make things happen.

I’m now more scared than confused these days. I’m scared that I only have a few places to apply to and when I have exhausted those options, there’s nothing else to do, but move on and accept that things were not meant to be. I’m scared that what I want isn’t what God wants for me (yet again).

I kind of gave myself this timeline of one more month to do the unthinkable-one month to be a Kapamilya, Kapuso, or something else. I don’t think I have the heart to stay unemployed for six full months in this country, nor do I have the heart to say goodbye to the nice people that I’ve met here after six months.

So to those who are willing to lend a helping hand (or know someone who can), here are the job sectors I’m aiming for:

- media (tv stations, music companies, magazines)
- advertising agency
- marketing position in a multi-national company

Any contacts or job leads would be greatly appreciated. Thanks to Kuya Heinz, Bajeng, Mayie, Alessa, and Pon who have done their share already.

So Close

After a day of Divisoria, we ate dinner at Edsa Shangri-La last night. I’ve noticed that the hotels in Manila always have their dining areas right as you walk into the hotel. Tells you what the priorities are around here. HeHe. Anyway, I wore my new green skirt with matching necklace. You wouldn’t have guessed it was me had you seen me. Besides, I blended in with all the Chinese people there. Whatever happened to Ongpin being the place for Chinese people?! HeHe.

Tonight, I thought I would have good news to tell. Today was definitely the epitome of “So close yet so far away.” I was so giddy when I set foot in that office, but my giddiness disappeared after two hours of waiting for nothing. Perhaps I have more details to this story by next week or the week after. Cross your fingers!

And before I forget, let me just say “Lecheng Hale!” I’ve been complaining to my cousins that Hale is friggen everywhere these days. Their video is on every five minutes on every channel; they’re the artist of the week/month on every channel; they’re Smart endorsers; even sa Jollibee, tugtog pa rin yung song nila; and today, well, I finally saw the boys in the flesh. I was sitting quietly when they all walked in. If I hadn’t been sitting on my butt for at least an hour and I wasn’t trying to look professional, I would’ve asked for a picture. Marunong din pala akong mahiya. HeHe. However, if Pen was with me, I have no doubt in my mind that she would’ve exclaimed, “They look poor!” Sis, si Bamboo lang naman kasi ang conyong rockista. LoL.

It's a Deal

Every single time I go into a mall, I usually end up in Bayo and Kamiseta. However, I don't dare buy anything because, well, I'm unemployed. And after bringing all my Kamiseta loot in 2002 to Seattle, I realized that I shouldn't have spent that much money on clothes that you can't even stick in the dryer because they shrink.

Hence, I've been feening to go to Divisoria since the day I set foot in this country. I want girly clothes, but I know that I will only wear them while I'm here in Manila so I might as well not spend much money on them. So today, I wore one of my many gusgusin outfits and some tennis shoes and headed to the bargain capital of Metro Manila - Divisoria.

I could've splurged more, but I didn't. I could've bought my Korean DVDs, but didn't ("Attic Cat" for P600...di ba, mahal 'yon? I mean, for a pirated copy?). In other words, I need to go back. HaHa! My most prized possession is my P200 skirt. That's less than $4 for a skirt! My bargaining skills are so top notch that my mom would've been so proud. Of course, that only works on nice tinderas. Screw the supladas and lazy tinderas; I refuse to give them a single penny even if they have something cute.

I didn't find the denim jacket that I was looking for (Think Ciara's "Oh" video). I didn't find any accessories that can make me look girly (Alessa, you might be the only solution to my problem. HeHe!). Yet, I have some other stuff that can start me off to my road to womanhood. HaHa! Granted that none of them makes a whole outfit, but it's a start.