The Complete 411

I don't know what I'm going to do with myself anymore. Three days into the new year and I already broke my mini-resolution (it's not the most important thing in the world, so it's "mini" LoL).

I told myself that in 2004, I wasn't going to be antipatika to guys anymore. I told myself that if the guy asks me out once, I can say no if I didn't want to go. But if he begs and pleads the second time around, I should give him a chance. I told myself that if he asks to buy me a Christmas gift, I should let him instead of declining the offer. Who knew that these things are easier said than done?!

It is true that you don't know what you've got until it's gone. It's not like I'm here wallowing in my misery or anything, but I should've at least given the guy a chance. Afterall, I did know the guy's college GPA (HeHe), we both had the same outlook towards living here in Seattle, and we simply had the same interests. The "fate factor" was clearly there months later, playing its part. However, I was just too heartless and blind to see what was in front of me at that time.

So realizing this little problem of mine a few days before 2003 ended, I told myself that I'll be different in 2004. I had a shot to put my mini-resolution into practice today when I received a few strangerster messages on Friendster. Sadly, my amiable self (do I even have one?!) never showed up to reply to those messages.

I used to say that I hate wasting my time, but since I have all the time in the world these days, then that's not a legit excuse anymore. It's really a trust issue then. *SIGH. I guess, the best thing to do, if you're going to set me up with someone, is to forward his college transcripts, NBI/FBI clearance, resume, an 8x10 picture, medical charts, and other pertinent information to me as soon as you can. If his parent(s) is/are "important" in some way, do tell me now. Don't let me find out a year or so later, unless you want me kicking myself over and over like I have been doing lately. Once I have all of these info, maybe, just maybe, I will actually get my act together in 2004. For now, I'll just have to cry every single time I see a can of cashews. {;P

Snow Break

Snow, I love you. Really, I do. You're one of the few reasons that makes me happy about living in the U.S. But really, can you stop falling for now? You were cute on Tuesday night, but not anymore. Trying hard ka na niyan ngayon eh.

It turned out that while I was working hard at configuring Blogger last night, snow was falling yet again outside. When I woke up this morning, it truly looked like a winter wonderland. It was a very picturesque scene indeed. Later today, I looked outside to see snowflakes dropping again and I couldn't help but frown. I have to show up for work tomorrow (I am not allowed to call-in sick despite my very legit sick self), so I need those streets to be clear. Please, oh please, let the forecast for tonight be wrong!

A Silent Night...And Day

I'm welcoming the new year with no voice. As much as I would like to lie and say that I lost my voice because I partied hard last night (I was actually asleep way before midnight), I won't. I can thank nasty phlegm for clogging up my vocal chords enough to make me a mute for the past two days. I didn't even show up for work yesterday although I'm kind of thankful because I had a solid excuse not to risk my life by driving on the snow-filled roads.

So what is in store for me this coming year to warrant such a silent welcome? Does this mean I'll have a peaceful year? Does this mean a lovelife is coming which would finally allow me to stop complaining? Or, does this simply mean that I need to go to the drugstore soon to pick up some anti-phlegm stuff (is there such a thing?)? I have 365, err, 364 days to find out.

It Is Bigger To Receive

For the first time in my whole entire life, I am enjoying giving more than receiving this Christmas season. No, really, I mean it. I'm totally content with buying gifts that people would enjoy/appreciate, not caring about what, and if, I would be getting anything in return. I'm just as confused as you are about all of this, but it really does feel good. HeHe.

I think in the past years, I have always looked forward to opening those gifts, but getting really disappointed. Not necessarily because I didn't get what I wanted, but I was more disappointed to find out that the person didn't know me well enough, judging by the gift itself. Does that make sense? This year, by some divine intervention, I simply have peace of mind regarding gift-giving. I have no expectations, no care about anything that has to do with "To: Romina," no bitterness whatsoever. Hooray for me.

But just because I have no expectations, doesn't mean that gifts that come my way don't deserve any attention either. HeHe. As Belle found out, my happiness is equivalent to P75. It doesn't take much to make me happy, folks. LoL. My boss today also gave me a bottle of "champagne" (sparkling cider) to celebrate my new job come 2004...of course, this gift was given before getting counseling from her. After our talk, I realized that there were more negative aspects than positive ones regarding my JWM/JWB. {=/ I have another round of thinking to do. *SIGH.

Regardless, I'm feeling warm and fuzzy about...the most wonderful time of the yeeeaaarrrrrrrrr.... Are you? =)

Not Everything

You can't really have everything in life. Trust me, I know.

I now have a job offer. Actually, I've had it since Thursday of last week, but I wasn't able to connect with the hiring manager by phone until today (there goes my no-cellphone self again). It's a JWM (job with meaning) as well as a JWB (job with benefits, as RJ would say). The catch? Since it's a job with meaning, I have to sacrifice salary. *SIGH.

Those who know me know that my life does not revolve around money. I don't desire every single nice thing that I see and I don't mind not having what everyone else has (except when it comes to boyfriends, I want one of those. HaHa). So it's not really about the amount of money, but what that amount of money equates to. Does that make sense? I know what I'm capable of and what kind of an employee I am so I expect to be paid fairly for it. I've deserved every single salary that I've gotten thus far in life...except for this new job offer.

However, it's beyond anyone's control since I'm dealing with a non-profit organization. My confusion comes from deciding whether I should take this job, or wait forever to find "the one" (need I explain my luck about waiting for anything and anyone that has to do with being "the one"? LoL). There are two consequences that I see: a) my first real-world salary will be the basis for future salaries, b) my salary should get higher as the years pass by and not the other way around.

I am thankful for getting such an offer during a time when families are struggling to make ends meet. I would also rather be a contributing member to our capitalist world rather than a wanna-be. Heck, I guess I'm just creating a dilemma for no reason. Shut up and work it, girlfriend! ;P