Falling Bricks

Mr. Twin: my goodness...go out and have fun..and if you meet a guy along the way great get to know him..it will only take you a few minutes to know since YOU know What YOU are looking for
MiNA: kaya nga, march 2005 nga
MiNA: geez
Mr. Twin: whatever
Mr. Twin: you know your defense mechanism will be up and running again when you meet any guy
MiNA: lol. u sound like kuya greg
MiNA: he used the term "defense mechanism" on me last week too
Mr. Twin: well its obvious with you thats why

You know, for being my twin, he sure isn't nice. LoL. Anyway, for the past two weeks, a few guys have been telling me "the truth." Terms like "defense mechanism" and "baggages" have been used by errrbody to describe my communication patterns towards guys. First of all, I didn't know I was *that* transparent. Could've saved me some explanations every year, you know. LoL.

I got to thinking though, would I still act the same when I'm in Manila? Would my defense mechanism be at work again when I'm finally there? This is a serious matter, folks. Would I call Christian Bautista "Kuya Christian" when I finally see him? LoL. Granted, I didn't call Totop Suzara "Kuya" when I met him in 2002. HeHe.

After thinking it over, let me sing you a few lines, HeHe:

Through the fire
To the limit, to the wall
For a chance to be with you
I’d gladly risk it all
Through the fire
Through whatever, come what may
For a chance at loving you
I’d take it all the way
Right down to the wire
Even through the fire

Kuya Greg told me that when love hits me, it will feel like a ton of bricks. My reply is that those bricks will be from my wall because it will crumble down for the right guy. The emphasis here is "for the right guy." The crumbling wall and the right guy go hand-in-hand, okay? One will not happen without the other. 'Tis I know is true. LoL. So after much reflection today (while vacuuming the dust bunnies under my bed, hahaha), I have realized that I didn't really need to cry last night (stupid Kuya Greg and his Dr. Phil ways) because indeed, I will be fine as long as I know what I want. And I do. Promise. =D

P.S. Let me know though if you guys know of a "right guy" with a bulldozer just to be sure. HaHa!