I admire...those people who took it upon themselves to shoulder the responsibilities at home, for being breadwinners at an early age, for putting their family first all the time. I admire them because they accepted the responsibilities without complaints, without bitterness, without questioning their fate. I wish I could say the same about myself.
I envy...my cousins in the Philippines who don't have to worry about their future because they will be taken cared of no matter what, classmates and friends who got drunk during any day of the week. Although I never desired to have alcohol running through my veins, it would have been nice to at least have that choice during high school or college.
I wish...that when any of my cousins suggest that I move to Colorado, the Philippines, or any place in this world, I could just do it in an instant. When I want to do something for myself, I wish that it would just affect me; that if I ruin my future, the only person that is going to suffer is me.
I desire...selfishness when making decisions that matter most to one's life.
Monday, March 1, 2004
Sunday, February 29, 2004
Lay Me at His Feet
I went to mass today. After two years of rolling over and hitting the snooze button, I finally got myself to get out of bed at the sound of the alarm and go to church for the 7:15 a.m. mass. Do you know how I know God is forgiving? I don't burn when I enter those church doors.
Anyway, I hope to continue doing this on a weekly basis. I think it is about time to quit being selfish with one extra hour of sleep every Sunday before going to work. I also realized today that it is true that when you can't turn to anyone else, or you know that no one else can help you, there is still one place you can go to for help. Unfortunately, I always consider it as a last resort rather than a first resort. Maybe if I treat it as a first resort, I'll feel less defeated in certain areas of my life.
Since I made sumbong to God (excuse my Taglish, haha), let me just get this off my chest so it will be the end of it. This is just friendly advice to guys, actually for anyone. If you want to know how another person feels about you, just ask him/her. Don't try to "test" the person's feelings by hurting him/her intentionally. That's not how a friend would treat his/her friend...and so, if you're not acting like a friend, how am I suppose to accept you as one? ::violins playing::
With that in mind, hello new month of March!
Anyway, I hope to continue doing this on a weekly basis. I think it is about time to quit being selfish with one extra hour of sleep every Sunday before going to work. I also realized today that it is true that when you can't turn to anyone else, or you know that no one else can help you, there is still one place you can go to for help. Unfortunately, I always consider it as a last resort rather than a first resort. Maybe if I treat it as a first resort, I'll feel less defeated in certain areas of my life.
Since I made sumbong to God (excuse my Taglish, haha), let me just get this off my chest so it will be the end of it. This is just friendly advice to guys, actually for anyone. If you want to know how another person feels about you, just ask him/her. Don't try to "test" the person's feelings by hurting him/her intentionally. That's not how a friend would treat his/her friend...and so, if you're not acting like a friend, how am I suppose to accept you as one? ::violins playing::
With that in mind, hello new month of March!
Friday, February 27, 2004
Where Is the Love
Why do Filipino guys court girls that already has a boyfriend and/or why do they court other girls when they already have a girlfriend of their own?
I can give you lots of example from real life, but I'll just use one from TV as not to incriminate the bastards that I have come across in this lifetime. HeHe. Did anyone see the Feb. 14th episode of "Star In A Million" (There I go again advertising my jologs side. LoL)? The male contestant serenaded one of the female contestants who already has a boyfriend. The guy goes, "I know she already has a boyfriend, and I'm not expecting anything. I just want to do something nice for a nice girl." I don't know the exact title, or the words of the song he sang to her, but the gist of it was something like, "Why aren't we together...blah blah blah." You should've seen my reaction to that one. LoL
Conscience, fellas, conscience! Don't you guys have any?! I do understand that it definitely takes two to tango. For me, if you're a decent girl, you would walk away and not entertain the guy with a girlfriend. Am I the only one with that mentality? I'm not making it sound like it's the easiest thing to do, especially if you're a single girl, but it can be done, ladies. Trust me.
One of the things my cousin told me while I was in Manila was that if a guy can be a bastard to his former girlfriend, then he can be a bastard to you, too. They are words I have been living by ever since. Hence, we're back to my original problem of not finding any single, decent, (and cute!) Filipino guys out there. It always comes back to that, doesn't it? LoL. Anyway, my point is, if people just treated their significant others well, there would be less bitter, traumatized people out there. And no, I won't explain any further. HeHe.
I can give you lots of example from real life, but I'll just use one from TV as not to incriminate the bastards that I have come across in this lifetime. HeHe. Did anyone see the Feb. 14th episode of "Star In A Million" (There I go again advertising my jologs side. LoL)? The male contestant serenaded one of the female contestants who already has a boyfriend. The guy goes, "I know she already has a boyfriend, and I'm not expecting anything. I just want to do something nice for a nice girl." I don't know the exact title, or the words of the song he sang to her, but the gist of it was something like, "Why aren't we together...blah blah blah." You should've seen my reaction to that one. LoL
Conscience, fellas, conscience! Don't you guys have any?! I do understand that it definitely takes two to tango. For me, if you're a decent girl, you would walk away and not entertain the guy with a girlfriend. Am I the only one with that mentality? I'm not making it sound like it's the easiest thing to do, especially if you're a single girl, but it can be done, ladies. Trust me.
One of the things my cousin told me while I was in Manila was that if a guy can be a bastard to his former girlfriend, then he can be a bastard to you, too. They are words I have been living by ever since. Hence, we're back to my original problem of not finding any single, decent, (and cute!) Filipino guys out there. It always comes back to that, doesn't it? LoL. Anyway, my point is, if people just treated their significant others well, there would be less bitter, traumatized people out there. And no, I won't explain any further. HeHe.
Thursday, February 26, 2004
Good for Me
I am now employed. I was offered the position yesterday after my second interview, and I accepted the position today. My start date will be on March 16th.
As people might have figured out by now, I make it a point to learn from people as much as I can. Whether it's people around me, people in the news, or people on TV, I feel that anyone can learn something from someone. During the Chinese New Year, the folks on Breakfast (why aren't they showing Breakfast on ANC anymore?!) interviewed some Chinese Filipinos in Binondo. One lady was asked why Chinese Filipinos are successful in business. She replied, "Filipinos are always thinking how to get rich quickly. Chinese Filipinos, on the other hand, tend to start in low-paying jobs and work their butts off. Eventually, their hard work pays off."
Her words stuck with me ever since and I applied them today by not negotiating my salary prior to accepting the position. What more could I ask for? This was my very last hope, and it was given to me. I'll be working in the Marketing Department, allowing me to be in my field of choice. I'll be working for the city government, making this job a JWM in my book. It's only a temporary position, but I'm fine with it. This will allow me to work, gain experience, and save up for my "Philippines 2004: Now or Never" trip (Naks, may title pa! LoL). However, I know my mom won't be happy that I still don't have medical/dental insurance, but that's another drama for a future entry. HeHe. What else? It will only take me 15 minutes to get to/from work and parking won't be a problem.
I am absolutely thankful.
As people might have figured out by now, I make it a point to learn from people as much as I can. Whether it's people around me, people in the news, or people on TV, I feel that anyone can learn something from someone. During the Chinese New Year, the folks on Breakfast (why aren't they showing Breakfast on ANC anymore?!) interviewed some Chinese Filipinos in Binondo. One lady was asked why Chinese Filipinos are successful in business. She replied, "Filipinos are always thinking how to get rich quickly. Chinese Filipinos, on the other hand, tend to start in low-paying jobs and work their butts off. Eventually, their hard work pays off."
Her words stuck with me ever since and I applied them today by not negotiating my salary prior to accepting the position. What more could I ask for? This was my very last hope, and it was given to me. I'll be working in the Marketing Department, allowing me to be in my field of choice. I'll be working for the city government, making this job a JWM in my book. It's only a temporary position, but I'm fine with it. This will allow me to work, gain experience, and save up for my "Philippines 2004: Now or Never" trip (Naks, may title pa! LoL). However, I know my mom won't be happy that I still don't have medical/dental insurance, but that's another drama for a future entry. HeHe. What else? It will only take me 15 minutes to get to/from work and parking won't be a problem.
I am absolutely thankful.
Tuesday, February 24, 2004
First Love Never Dies
Whoever choreographed the Streetboys' dance number for tonight's episode of "Ok, Fine, Whatever" is one talented person. I was totally blown away by the performance. I can't even explain it. My gosh, after how many years of them recycling their moves, I finally got to see them do a newly choreographed, all-original dance number, and it was well-worth the wait. The use of the props, the formation changes, and especially the execution of the body rolls: they were all absolutely perfect! I'm sorry to say though, my dance team did those exact body rolls way before y'all did...and I'm not even going to mention which year because it will just remind me how old I am. HaHa. Anyway, I'm still keeping my baduy dream alive of performing with either the Streetboys or Manoeuvres one of these days...I just hope I get to do it before the members turn fifty years old. {;P Hooray for straight male dancers!
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