I'm usually in good terms with my friends' families. I'm the girl who refers to my friends' parents as "Mom" or "Dad". I'm the girl who gets invited to Sunday gatherings or special events reserved for family members. I'm the girl who gets referred to as "Tita" by nephews and nieces that are technically not mine.
But never in my wildest dreams did I imagine that I would become my friend's family's topic of conversation over a meal. More specifically, the topic being my lovelife. Eek! I'm still not over the news. Why didn't anyone tell me?! How did it come to this! I'm super embarrassed, if that's even the right way to explain how I'm feeling.
All I wanted to be was one of the good friends: the one who drops by ocassionally to have a conversation; the one whom the whole family knows, but who doesn't get all their attention. Well, not anymore. They all know me. They all know my, umm, "feelings." They all know! Crap! LoL.
Note to self? Mina, most people meet the guy first before the family. Why don't you try it next time? Be like the rest of the world for once! HaHa! Usually, people don't even get to meet the family until years later. Try that! Maybe you'll be able to avoid these weird situations that you get yourself into! HaHa!
It takes a whole village to help me with my problems? No! It takes a whole family!
Tuesday, February 7, 2006
Sunday, February 5, 2006
I'm Brown
Hands down the number one advice people have given me lately is: Follow your heart.
There's just one problem: I don't know how. I've said it before and it's really true! And what better way to scientifically prove this by taking an online test? LoL. Check it out:
Mina, your true color is Brown!
You're brown, a credible, stable color that's reminiscent of fine wood, rich leather, and wistful melancholy (and the color of Filipinos, too, but I'm not brown. Labo! HaHa!). Most likely, you're a logical, practical person ruled more by your head than your heart (Yep, you said it!). With your inquisitive mind and insatiable curiosity, you're probably a great problem solver (Why can't I solve my own problems, though? LoL). And you always gather all of the facts before coming to a timely, informed decision (Correct!). Easily intrigued, you're constantly finding new ways to challenge your mind, whether it's by reading the newspaper, playing a trivia game, or composing a piece of music (or moving to Manila to find work). Brown is an impartial, neutral color, which means you tend to see the difference between fact and opinion easily and are open to many points of view (I dish words of wisdom just as much as I get them). Trustworthy and steady, you really are a brown at heart (Is that a compliment?!).
(Red Zara, thanks for the link.)
There's just one problem: I don't know how. I've said it before and it's really true! And what better way to scientifically prove this by taking an online test? LoL. Check it out:
Mina, your true color is Brown!
You're brown, a credible, stable color that's reminiscent of fine wood, rich leather, and wistful melancholy (and the color of Filipinos, too, but I'm not brown. Labo! HaHa!). Most likely, you're a logical, practical person ruled more by your head than your heart (Yep, you said it!). With your inquisitive mind and insatiable curiosity, you're probably a great problem solver (Why can't I solve my own problems, though? LoL). And you always gather all of the facts before coming to a timely, informed decision (Correct!). Easily intrigued, you're constantly finding new ways to challenge your mind, whether it's by reading the newspaper, playing a trivia game, or composing a piece of music (or moving to Manila to find work). Brown is an impartial, neutral color, which means you tend to see the difference between fact and opinion easily and are open to many points of view (I dish words of wisdom just as much as I get them). Trustworthy and steady, you really are a brown at heart (Is that a compliment?!).
(Red Zara, thanks for the link.)
Saturday, February 4, 2006
Gotta Have Faith
For those who have been single for awhile (*ahem), it's not hard to be a pessimist. We have been out there; we know the reality of our situation. HaHa!
But one of the advices I've gotten lately that really made me think was "Positivity attracts positive things." You know, good karma. How does this relate to love you may ask?
Well, if we keep thinking that there are no GREAT guys left in this world or that prince charming will never arrive, sure enough he probably won't. Yes, I'm guilty of this. I can't even link all my archives that talked about this very subject because the list will be too long. HaHa!
When we start thinking negatively about our single state (*ahem), that's when the problems start. What I've noticed lately from all the love problems that I've been summoned to solve (naks!), women start crying their eyes out when they try to settle for someone beneath them. And maybe, just maybe, they decide to put up with that kind of crap because they don't BELIEVE that another guy will come along who's ten times better than the one in front of them. My point? Believe! Believe like you've never believed anything before! He will come!
Do I believe that there's a great guy out there for me? Now I do. Seriously, I really do. That's a miracle in itself, I think. HaHa! I think God has finally dropped me enough hints to make me believe that He will send one eventually. I've met enough guys in the last six months who made me realize that there's hope: the guy who went in Ice Monster to ask if they use purified ice, the guy who said "You're a gem waiting to be found," the guy who said "She's pretty" in Bisaya right in front of me, the guy who had cut up the Crispy Pata for me (ang babaw ba? LoL), the guy who made sure to keep me safe every time a jeep passed by, the guy who said "I support you" (okay, that was my cousin, but he's a guy!). These guys have shown me that GREAT guys exist and when the right time comes, one of their kind will eventually find his way to San Mateo. HaHa!
From now on, no more bitterness (Okay, just a little; it keeps me alive. LoL). No more pessimism. No more references to becoming a part of the Good Shepard Convent in Baguio (HaHa!). Just a lot of faith that good things come to those who think positively. Naks!
But one of the advices I've gotten lately that really made me think was "Positivity attracts positive things." You know, good karma. How does this relate to love you may ask?
Well, if we keep thinking that there are no GREAT guys left in this world or that prince charming will never arrive, sure enough he probably won't. Yes, I'm guilty of this. I can't even link all my archives that talked about this very subject because the list will be too long. HaHa!
When we start thinking negatively about our single state (*ahem), that's when the problems start. What I've noticed lately from all the love problems that I've been summoned to solve (naks!), women start crying their eyes out when they try to settle for someone beneath them. And maybe, just maybe, they decide to put up with that kind of crap because they don't BELIEVE that another guy will come along who's ten times better than the one in front of them. My point? Believe! Believe like you've never believed anything before! He will come!
Do I believe that there's a great guy out there for me? Now I do. Seriously, I really do. That's a miracle in itself, I think. HaHa! I think God has finally dropped me enough hints to make me believe that He will send one eventually. I've met enough guys in the last six months who made me realize that there's hope: the guy who went in Ice Monster to ask if they use purified ice, the guy who said "You're a gem waiting to be found," the guy who said "She's pretty" in Bisaya right in front of me, the guy who had cut up the Crispy Pata for me (ang babaw ba? LoL), the guy who made sure to keep me safe every time a jeep passed by, the guy who said "I support you" (okay, that was my cousin, but he's a guy!). These guys have shown me that GREAT guys exist and when the right time comes, one of their kind will eventually find his way to San Mateo. HaHa!
From now on, no more bitterness (Okay, just a little; it keeps me alive. LoL). No more pessimism. No more references to becoming a part of the Good Shepard Convent in Baguio (HaHa!). Just a lot of faith that good things come to those who think positively. Naks!
Friday, February 3, 2006
One Big Fight
A foreword:
I know Kuya Heinz.
Kuya Heinz knows Homer.
Homer knows Mike.
Mike knows Mark.
(And yes, we're such geeks for all having websites. HaHa!)
So back in November, when we were in Bohol, Mike said to me, "I have a friend who just moved to Seattle." My first thought was, "Eh?" For crying out loud, no one from the Philippines ever moves to Seattle. Okay, there's a huge population of Filipinos in Seattle, but no one I know ever moves to Seattle!
Today, I stumbled upon Mark's website and sure enough, Mike wasn't lying to me (not like I thought you were lying, Mike, but hey, like I said, no one ever moves to Seattle so I couldn't fathom the idea!). Looking at Mark's pictures truly made me miss Seattle even more. And it was quirky to read about his experience moving to "Seattle" while I compare it to how life has been for me here in Manila. While everything is new for Mark and KC in Seattle, everything he has written were all "old school" to me. I'm sure they would say the same thing about my "Manila stories."
For those who don't know, self-doubt has been larger than life for me these days. I went to an interview this past week and was told (yet again), "With your GPA and experience, why are you looking for work in Manila?!" While exchanging money at SM later that day, I met a man from New Jersey and he said, "Dito ka naghahanap ng trabaho?!" I've always been a good person (*ahem) who always did the right thing, so having the disapproval of EVERYONE I know about working here has been tough.
It's been so tough this past week that I ended up buying a copy of The Alchemist to get my spirits up again. Reading it for the second time didn't help me ease the emotional turmoil I've been going through, though.
Am I really that stupid to try to want to work in Manila? Is it worth it? Am I strong enough? Can I prove everyone wrong? Will I get the last laugh? Is education really priceless? Life is already hard, why do I want to make it harder? Can I find what I'm looking for in Seattle instead? How much do I want it? Do people really die not having done what they've always wanted to do? Does my family really know what's best for me? Do I really know what's best for me? Am I going to be a better person at the end of it all? Are people really happy taking the "safe" route? Has someone "succeeded" doing what I'm doing?
Those are just SOME of the questions in my head. I thought I knew the answers before, but I'm not so sure anymore.
I know Kuya Heinz.
Kuya Heinz knows Homer.
Homer knows Mike.
Mike knows Mark.
(And yes, we're such geeks for all having websites. HaHa!)
So back in November, when we were in Bohol, Mike said to me, "I have a friend who just moved to Seattle." My first thought was, "Eh?" For crying out loud, no one from the Philippines ever moves to Seattle. Okay, there's a huge population of Filipinos in Seattle, but no one I know ever moves to Seattle!
Today, I stumbled upon Mark's website and sure enough, Mike wasn't lying to me (not like I thought you were lying, Mike, but hey, like I said, no one ever moves to Seattle so I couldn't fathom the idea!). Looking at Mark's pictures truly made me miss Seattle even more. And it was quirky to read about his experience moving to "Seattle" while I compare it to how life has been for me here in Manila. While everything is new for Mark and KC in Seattle, everything he has written were all "old school" to me. I'm sure they would say the same thing about my "Manila stories."
For those who don't know, self-doubt has been larger than life for me these days. I went to an interview this past week and was told (yet again), "With your GPA and experience, why are you looking for work in Manila?!" While exchanging money at SM later that day, I met a man from New Jersey and he said, "Dito ka naghahanap ng trabaho?!" I've always been a good person (*ahem) who always did the right thing, so having the disapproval of EVERYONE I know about working here has been tough.
It's been so tough this past week that I ended up buying a copy of The Alchemist to get my spirits up again. Reading it for the second time didn't help me ease the emotional turmoil I've been going through, though.
Am I really that stupid to try to want to work in Manila? Is it worth it? Am I strong enough? Can I prove everyone wrong? Will I get the last laugh? Is education really priceless? Life is already hard, why do I want to make it harder? Can I find what I'm looking for in Seattle instead? How much do I want it? Do people really die not having done what they've always wanted to do? Does my family really know what's best for me? Do I really know what's best for me? Am I going to be a better person at the end of it all? Are people really happy taking the "safe" route? Has someone "succeeded" doing what I'm doing?
Those are just SOME of the questions in my head. I thought I knew the answers before, but I'm not so sure anymore.
Wednesday, February 1, 2006
A Little Thing Called Love
After three failed attempts, I finally got to see "Little Manhattan" yesterday at Gateway. I was smiling the whole time...okay, except for when I shed a tear at one part of the movie...and when I was laughing very hard when the boy was crying about "2 1/2 weeks!"
It may be just G-rated, but it's so true that regardless how old (or young) we are, we still think about love the same way and we go through the same emotions. I was giggling throughout the movie because I keep remembering my past experiences. *SIGH. It was a feel good movie indeed.
And speaking of love, congrats again to Kuya Heinz and Ate Ambie! I got really happy when I got the text message of the good news. Kuya has this thing of not texting back right away (and sometimes, never texting back at all!) and I always joke that it's because he and Ate are "busy." Well, I'm glad to know that the hard work has paid off! ;P
Also, in a few days, I will be an aunt to a new pamangkin! Ganda Girl is going to have a sibling soon! Another mini-me will be produced! It's my quiet attempt to rule over the world. ;P
Hay, everyone is spitting out kids this year.
It may be just G-rated, but it's so true that regardless how old (or young) we are, we still think about love the same way and we go through the same emotions. I was giggling throughout the movie because I keep remembering my past experiences. *SIGH. It was a feel good movie indeed.
And speaking of love, congrats again to Kuya Heinz and Ate Ambie! I got really happy when I got the text message of the good news. Kuya has this thing of not texting back right away (and sometimes, never texting back at all!) and I always joke that it's because he and Ate are "busy." Well, I'm glad to know that the hard work has paid off! ;P
Also, in a few days, I will be an aunt to a new pamangkin! Ganda Girl is going to have a sibling soon! Another mini-me will be produced! It's my quiet attempt to rule over the world. ;P
Hay, everyone is spitting out kids this year.
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